What is Wanted?

Contrary to a popular song ("You Can't Always Have What You Want") and also contrary to that same oft-repeated phrase hammered in by my mortal father while growing up ("Kimberly, you can't always have what you want!"), I DO BELIEVE that We REALLY DO... Get What We Want. But, alas... WHAT IS WANTED???

At a significant place within the walls of a building considered very sacred to the LDS people (of which I was one for most of my life), these words are given as a key to "entering into the presence of the Lord". In answer to this question given by a veiled being representing the Council of Gods, "Adam (or Eve for the women), having been true and faithful in all things, desires further light and knowledge, by conversing with the Lord (Elohim) through the Veil... After correctly answering several test questions, the patron is then stumped with one he or she cannot possibly answer (because no mere mortal could ever conceive of its real significance nor meaning).

After demonstrating complete and proper preparation (with any required assistance), the patron is then tutored (figuratively and, in most cases received ignorantly) in the correct response. Although deleted (along with other significant parts) from the amazing declaration which this entire "holy" ceremony was originally intended to represent and teach (for ALL humanity, not merely a relatively few "righteous" ones!), there are "Five Points of Fellowship" which are symbolically given as developmental milestones along each human's path of discovering that most important answer to the most provocative and enticing of all questions: "What is wanted?"

It is the unveiling of these "secrets" and the enlightenment of the "dark and dreary" wasteland that mortals walk which is my intent through these blog posts... and, indeed, through my life and the very reason for every breath I take.

For those brave souls who are led to this site with "broken hearts" and "contrite spirits"... it will be possible for each one to then figuratively, yet very, very really, to eventually hear the words for him or herself: "Let him enter!"

While concealed from the masses of men who wander blindly in unbelief and ignorance, the "Promised Land" (or "Kingdom of Heaven") really does exist... NOW... upon the earth. In fact, this very place, which is the quintessential reward held on reserve for EACH of us, requires no sum of money, no Olympic-quality physical exertion, in fact, NO "THING" is asked for its acquisition. And yet... EVERY THING is required for it to be fully received and embraced. The discovery of this beyond-amazing reward is always personal. Yet, full realization of this "Pearl of Great Price" is held on reserve for each one of us.

All that is required is the correct answering (through one's very life) of this all-important question: "What is wanted?"

So, Dear Reader, here we go. I will give my utmost to assist each of you brave ones in your journey. And, I promise... Each of you will invariably acknowledge at your personal journey's end: "It was so worth it! Every bit!"

May we each see each other on the other side of that veil and, together, rejoice and embrace in grand celebration is my vision. In peace and with great hopes, Kimberly

Today's Message

I was awakened today with the words: "By superimposing beliefs over the reality of a situation, one forces the reality to appear to conform to one's beliefs... instead of remaining open and allowing the reality to reveal its True Nature."

I DID IT!!!

October brought me face-to-face with an unknown beast.... I was confronted by a personal fear. Having, I had thought, previously conquered all fears, I was stunned, then to find one jump out into my experience. Dave (who has yet to be introduced to you, Dear Reader) and Krystal (now ten years old) and I decided to do an easy hike that day around Pioneer Park (the red Dixie Rock) in St. George, Utah. Covering not much more than 60 feet, and with mostly a gradual ascent, the crimson sandstone rock had long ago split open, revealing a crevice about thirteen inches wide and, in most places, about twenty feet high. Knowing that my body could fit through that thirteen inches and that many people had survived the experience, I saw no reason to hold back and began making my way through. Not far into the "shimmy" I had the overwhelming sensation of claustrophobia well up within me. Fear and terror sought to overcome me! Trapped by the sheer walls on two sides and with fellow hikers in front and behind, there was nothing I could do but to will myself through. I breathed deeply and told myself that all was well, I could continue, there was nothing to be afraid of. Still, with others beginning their ascent behind Dave (who was behind me), I also did not want to hinder or bog down any of their experiences. I willed myself to continue. As I felt the fear, I also pulled back mentally and *watched* myself experience the fear. This split allowed me to, as a more mature *big sis*, encourage myself to keep going. Dave and Krystal were precious! Each of them were patient and encouraging. Step by step, hand grip by hand grip, I fought my desire to scream and continued to inch forward and upward. About half-way through the slot was a small cavernous opening where I was able to step aside and allow those behind me to continue forward while I caught my breath, sat down on a rock and put my head below my knees for a few minutes while I loved myself back into my peace. Again, Krystal and Dave were magnanimous in their patient encouragement. Continuing on after a few minutes, I eventually lived through it and, obviously made it out of the canyon. As I relaxed at the top and we continued our hike around the stunning views and colored rock of the area, I pondered deep and wide: where had that fear come from? What trauma from my past could have been brought forth for me to look at? Knowing, with my tenacity, that I would some day face that fear again and go through the canyon a second time, I continued to also be open to learning what I had exposed to myself about myself. Yesterday morning Dave asked, upon seeing that the weather would be gorgeous, if I wanted to try the hike again. I immediately responded with "Yes!" So we did. This time, Dear Reader, I was able to sail right through, with very little inner tremor. I KNEW that I would live through the experience this time: Been there, done that! And... I did. In fact, immediately after making my way through with the other courageous folk that had congregated for their personal exploration, I triumphantly expressed at the top: "I DID IT!" I have long lived with the confidence that "I can do ALL things through Christ which strengtheneth me!" Often in my life I have had to call on all the inner reserves I could muster. At times, there have been "Angels" at my disposal who (like Dave and Krystal) have been there to provide help and encouragement. This, I believe, is what we each can offer to each other. This is also, Dear Reader, that which I desire to share with YOU! YOU can do all things and make it through all trauma in your path! And... together, we are so much stronger than each one of us alone. I love you, Dear Reader, and believe in you. May you make today bless-ed... for yourself and for each of the other potential "Angels" within your sphere. In peace....

January 18th--A Day of Great Significance to Me--The Exploration and Revelation Begins to Unfold

A careful investigator of my life will quickly note that my journey has been one of intense and continuous striving for understanding. With an open mind and an active curiosity I have felt self-driven to find the answers that made the most sense to discovering *Who I Am* and *What Am I Here For*??? My life's adventures have led me to and through much territory which others would not even consider exploring. Along my journey, I have come to discover the meaning and power of *Words* and how hypnotic and lulling they can become... truly casting *spells* and administering *sleeping potions* to those caught in their snares. Indeed, the pen IS mightier than the sword. Ironically, it has been my own fixation with words that has propelled me down a path of grand discovery. Unafraid, I have armed myself with confidence and determination to uncover what things REALLY mean, what symbols REALLY represent, who I REALLY AM. It is precisely This grand adventure, Dear Reader, which (should you continue) you may now walk with me as I share *Key Words* and understandings. For those with open minds and warm hearts, I will lead YOU through a maze of self-discovery and intrigue such as you have never known and could not even suppose. Relying predominantly upon my own life's experiences, I will additionally use common symbols and myths, scriptures and nature to unfold that which has lain hidden in plain sight of each of us all along. Among myriad of other words and subjects, I plan to explore the REAL meanings and significance of terms such as: adultery, one-ness, atonement, holy spirit of promise, a couple, true marriage, rings, Zion, becoming ONE, father, mother, Christ, son (of God), the promises in "scripture", the deep longings hidden within each human breast, the true needs of mortals, love, its meaning and acquisition, raising children properly, "doing unto others", prosperity, health, correctly utilizing (and healing) our senses, consciousness, energy, emotions, etc. etc. etc. Welcome Aboard!

A New Day Is Dawning...

Oh, how momentous has been this last year! Oh, how my heart swells open with the joy, wonder, and adventure of it all! Oh, how I have been compelled more than ever to cling to that holy place within my being to steer me through this grand adventure that I have been living! But, oh... how the increase in clarity and wisdom has opened up and enveloped me because of my path. And now, dear Reader, I am about to make available to any and all willing and prepared to review the ride with me. Hang on to your hats and buckle your seat belts 'cause... Here... We... GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! (Beginning tomorrow, January 18, 2015, I will begin "blogging" again. My intent will be the edification and elevation of all those who are able to maneuver to and through what I offer on my website: www.loveistheanswer.info .) With love and hope for all mankind, Kimberly

...GO !!! ...

(...continued...) [I have some great photos which, as soon as I discover how to upload them here, will be soon included within this blog... I hope. :-)] The day after I had posted my craigslist ad, receiving a couple replies but nothing substantial, I received a phone call from a friend I had not talked with for a while. As I shared my latest venture with him, he responded that as a "backup plan" I could stay with him and his wife and he was confident that some of his close associates would be thrilled to receive my assistance. However... none of that panned out exactly as either of us had envisioned. Instead, long story short, this amazing individual (who shall remain "Anonymous") has gone to magnanimous effort and has purchased and prepared a motor home for Krystal and I to live in. Krystal and I came home from Arizona the end of January and immediately moved out of Matt's home. I learned (or, rather, Re-Membered) some very critical and important principles which will enhance my further gift to humanity, and we have flowed through each experience and choice, for a while moving in with some other friends as we worked on the motor home and our transition. Although my Neanderthal laptop crashed beyond resurrection after my post last week, I am now on a library computer and determined to continue walking forward in peace and serenity. I realize that I truly live in a state of amazement and apparent "miracles." Oh, the gratitude I feel as I continually marvel at my bounteous life. Wow, it has been an amazing few weeks...! :-) Since that day (January 18th), I have gotten more and more clarity on what this next chapter of our lives will look like. Long story short (a.k.a. "And it came to pass..."), Krystal and I are now (as of Sunday) established at "*ZION'S GATE* RV Park" with a very comfortable, albeit "elderly" and snug, home. It is PERFECT for us. My heart is swollen with gratitude to now be able to offer more of my heart to more of those who may have been preparing and sending out the energetic invitation for what I may have to offer. Krystal is now "home-schooling" and I am more confidently and correctly living TRUE to my REAL inner voice than ever before. Oh, life is so amazing! Though so very much has been left out of these posts, should any curious reader be interested in "the rest of the story" or personal communication with me, please respond via email through: kimberly@loveistheanswer.info I will soon be making available my writings thus far via internet or in book form. If any interested "editor" or "publisher" wishes to contact me, you have my invitation. May we each reJOYce and live LOVE and PEACE through each day and every experience. My love to all, Kimberly :-)

... Get SET... !

(Continuing) Over the next few days, I continued to ponder upon and take more and more seriously that inner call to have my "Eyes Single" (to more reJOYcing peace) while I served only ONE "Master"... the Advanced Being within ME (the REAL ME) who desires to live for the Good Of All. The home where Krystal and I were currently residing had become less comfortable as I felt deeply the need of the homeowner's newly moved in girlfriend to feel that she was the Only "Queen" of the home. Although I had not desired to uproot Krystal mid-school-year, and though Matt (the owner we rented from) had repeatedly and insistently stated his desire to have us remain there through May, I was feeling (and receiving their energy) otherwise. My emotional support and physical "moving over" for her and them was not enough for any of us. :-) Additionally, my daughter Alyssa, newly pregnant with her second child and having just moved into a new-to-them home with her husband and toddler had requested my help. My heart responded with a "Yes," though I had not known how to execute that with my lack of fiscal wherewithall, my clients' needs and my job's requirements. Somehow, I had known when replying to her that I would find a way down to her in Gilbert, Arizona. The first part of January I requested a few days off work beginning on January 16th. This was agreed upon by my employer and I was preparing for a short trip, all the while wondering about how all the details would be executed. Well, less than a week before my departure, one of my elderly clients had a mental/ emotional "seizure" (Reader, read between the lines) and I informed my employer that I would not continue caring for her. However, within the next couple hours, I realized that it was now "TIME" and that I must (and would) let go of the entire "job." Oh, how I felt like I was walking into a darker tunnel than ever, yet simultaneously realized my inner light bulb was brighter than it had ever been. I would find my way through by continued trusting of my "Holy Heart." Although I dearly loved each of those I had been blessed to serve and had learned volumes about human nature through being a "professional CARE-Giver," I realized that it would be selfish pride to hold onto serving the six I had stewardship for since the universe was showing me that "It" had something else in mind that would more completely fulfill the needs of ALL.... AND those six would be cared for as well. I realized that no "rational mind" would understand what I was doing. Mine didn't even. However, the "One" steering my journey DID... and I must trust. I called and talked with my young employer, wrote an email giving my "two weeks' notice," took care of loose ends and ended up having everything finalized much sooner than the "two weeks"... in fact, the day before my scheduled trip. An anonymous friend surprised me by sending a check which allowed me to pay for gas and other necessities of the trip. Thus, on January 16th, Krystal and I drove down to Arizona, job-less, income-less and soon-to-be home-less, but feeling as "free" as I had enroute to Ecuador just over five years before. During those first couple days at Alyssa's house, while peacefully searching the four corners of my mind for what was available of the blueprint (being created by the "One" who was guiding me) to our next phase, I received the understanding that I was to be a *LIFE NANNY* to those who had been and would become prepared to have my help in their lives. This would, in fact, be taking my former *JOY of Harmony* Parenting Seminars and the books which I am in the midst of writing to a whole new level. Intrigued and grateful, I composed the following craigslist ad, posting it on January 24th: ~~~~~ Are you Willing... to Donate/ Trade your RV??? Are *YOU* my *Miracle*? :-) Do you have a good-condition RV that is sitting mostly unused and dreaming of being put to use in the service of mankind? I am a single mother of a young daughter and have determined that my JOY is roaming the world caring for and serving those that I am led to. Now without a "job" and soon-to-be without a "home," I would love to utilize this freedom to live in a simple, easy-to-maintain RV to travel from need to need, blessing those that I am led to while administering peace and hope. I have degrees in education and much experience in CARE-giving, music and food-preparation. With my great love and respect for humanity, I believe that these qualities will find plenty of use "on the road." I am calling my service the "LIFE NANNY" and plan to name our forthcoming home/ RV the "LOVE SHACK." I have a few hundred dollars to begin my new journey, plus a possible older model Toyota Corolla to trade. If you are willing to donate/ trade your unused RV for a good feeling in your heart and a running "travelogue," I would appreciate your call or email. Thank you and may blessings continue to rain upon your head. With sincerity and HOPE, Kimberly :-) ~~~~~ (to be continued)