TRUE *Love* #7 "Dave's Resurrection"

I sat there in the booth at BYU’s “Cougar Eat”, sitting opposite my childhood friend and LDS Ward-mate, Brenda Frazier, as she enthusiastically shared how she was looking forward to her future mission.  Wonderingly, I asked my Inner Guidance Councilor if *I* was to, also, plan on and serve an LDS mission; after all, the required (at that time) age of 21 for women was only a year away for me.  With my heart and propensity to be everything I could possibly be for the Lord, surely a mission was in my future.  But, while seated and reflecting back my respect and approbation to Brenda, I received my soft yet firm answer:  “No.  I have a different kind of mission reserved for you.”  And that was it.  I put no further thought into the matter but continued on in my life, pouring the depths of my being into every task I undertook, dedicating each of these to the service of mankind and my “Father”. 

 

Through the ensuing years, I received many, many other “hints” and proddings from deep within, many trying to assist me to realize that I was, truly and purposefully, somehow *different* than others.  Even when CMN (the “True—MWAW—Messenger” to those who have left “The Telestial World”, the” Babylon” of the current  LDS Church) gave me hints with his mortal vocal cords (in contrast to those from my inner realms), I put them on a back mental shelf, still wanting to continue seeing myself as just one of everyone else.  When he would give me veiled hint after hint, even some publically (disguised as “rebukes”), I was not yet completely ready to accept them for what they were.  “You are a ‘Rock of Offense’ and offend everyone.  Your Spirit is not like theirs!”  “YOU do not need a prophet!...”  etc. etc.  Even when he publically declared that my brain is not wired like any other and that I was a type of “savant”.   I would just wonder, “What?  Why?”

 

To me, a savant was usually socially backwards yet extremely intelligent far in excess of what would be considered the “norm” in one specific field or another.  I knew that that was not me.  Smart, okay.  “Extremely intelligent?!”  I don’t think so!  Yes, I had done well in my educational pursuits.  I was conscientious and applied myself in addition to having some aspects of the educational realm come fairly easily to me.  When CMN officially labeled Robbie Pace as the “Autistic Savant of the MWAW” I was intrigued… and relieved.  YES!  *HE* can have that title and role!

 

Yet, I was to finally learn… and embrace… that there is another type of “savant”.  And, as witnessed by my taking up my cross on March 21^st of this year and beginning in earnest to write and expound the words of Christ, I understand, finally, just why I AM *different*, and how essential to this world my difference is.  Never feeling any more special than any other, yet I realize… and fully accept… my uniqueness and its contribution to each and every one else realizing… and accepting… THEIRS.  My offering to humanity is the necessary ingredient in establishing world peace… one heart and mind at a time.  This I will gratefully continue to offer… to all prepared and willing to leave the “Terrestrial World” or “the wilderness”… and come with me into “the Garden”… fully realizing the *Life, Liberty and the Pursuit of Happiness” as originally intended.  Fully capable (at that point) of offering THEIR crucial uniqueness… for me and everyone else to benefit from.

 

My difference:

 

I was born into this world fully attached with an unbreakable bond to my “Eternal Mother”.  I hear and obey her voice.  SHE is my “Inner Guidance Councilor”.  Her direction has provided me motivation, encouragement, my roadmap… every step of the way.  Yes, she has led me through rough and rigorous terrain.  She has held nothing back in my tutoring.  I have had to hold on for dear life… often… not knowing where she was taking me (physically, mentally, emotionally)… just knowing that she was the ONLY REALIABLE SOURCE I HAD!  And… I trusted her.  Still do.  Always will.

 

Though I have been deeply and scathingly judged by some, particularly during these last 10-15 years as I have been led more and more away from the “broadway” of those accepted mores of our culture, I have accepted, and come to understand, just what being my form of “savant” means and that it is, truly, my gift to apply for the benefit of humanity.  My gift is my inseparable bond with my *True Self*. 

 

My last post revealed some of my earlier experiences in seeing the attributes of humanity and some that are juxtaposed to my own strengths.  There have been many, many more chances for observing these differences between myself and others.  Indeed, I have never been “poor in Spirit”, though I have been required to feel “poor” and vulnerable at times.  MY gift to humanity is the awareness of the absolute necessity of and the ability to… be always “in control of my emotions”.  This I will assist the dedicated seeker of Intelligence to find for them self. 

 

Although our current society is fixated on the physical, quasi-intellectual and financial ladder of success, as I will expound and exhort, there is, ultimately, only one lasting measure of success.  That is the health of the heart.  Not the physical heart and its abilities to “pump”, mind you; but the energetic True Heart, that which is the conduit for the Spirit, that which allows for intelligence and connection to one’s “Eternal Mother”.  Their True Self.

 

Yet, like each organ of the spiritual vehicle, the physical organ that correlates with it (and here we are specifically addressing the heart) is a representative and can offer valuable insight.  For those worried about their physical heart, two tests are routinely used to measure their risk of experiencing a life-threatening bout with heart disease.  These are administered easily and noninvasively and are routinely given.  One is called the exercise stress test, or treadmill test.  During this test, a patient is put on a treadmill where they exercise to the point that they can’t go on.  It is at this point that the second (much more simple) test is applied.  The heart rate recovery measures how long the heart requires to return to its normal resting rate.  Doctors usually order these tests when they suspect that a patient may have a heart in trouble.  The healthier a person’s heart is, the quicker it returns to its normal beat; the less healthy the heart is, the longer it takes to recover from something like an exercise stress test.

 

Okay… so that deals with the physical heart, that which most people in our current society have become increasingly alarmed with.

 

But, although very related, there is a far, far, far, far (etc. etc.) more serious threat.  That is the decline and threat to the spiritual heart.  Yet, likewise, a very similar test is applied on an emotional level to determine one’s spiritual heart health.  Again, the words of Christ and my elucidations will assist both in administering the two tests and their interpretations as well as in the explanations of the protocol for healing and strengthening the spiritual heart.

 

Before I continue with the exhortation of HOW to take your own (or your child’s) emotional pulse, I will present for the public view my first and greatest miracle:  the resurrection of my “Beloved”, Dave.  (The name Dave means “Beloved”.  And, yes, Dave’s mother was inspired to name him Dave, him being my partner and love in this life while spiritually being my firstborn “Beloved Son”.  And, yes, though this post is somewhat premature as he has not completely finalized his ascent “up the mountain”, it is time to present the process and give the reader a representation and vision.

 

So, with Dave’s permission… and encouragement… I will share here first a letter that he wrote several months ago to his recently deceased parents.  Following that I will share excerpts from his journal entry yesterday (his “homework”).  After this post today I will proceed to give the *recipe and provide the parameters of how any (dedicated) one can apply these principles and (with diligent focus and sufficient will) climb this same “Stairway to Heaven”.

 

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Letter from Dave Seely to his (Deceased) Parents  August 4, 2015

 

Dear Mom and Dad,

 

                It was an honor to be raised by you at this time in our probation on this earth, when the fullness of the Gospel Truly is here on this earth, but so misunderstood by almost all.  You never had a chance to read or accept The Sealed Portion of The Book of Mormon even tho it was here before you both passed on.  I would have introduced it to you and had some wonderful discussions with both of you about the things you taught me and the things I know now to be true.  But I found it too late to have the opportunity.

 

                You both worked hard during your lives raising your children and doing what you thought was right for us.  But you failed to teach us how to “feel” or express our emotions and how to learn to work through them.  Instead, we always kept them inside and allowed them to create barriers between us and others.  This also caused us to not be able to truly listen to our Holy Ghost (True Selves), which is the main purpose for our existence.

 

                The next time you enter mortality, I hope to have helped create for mankind a blueprint for finding true and everlasting happiness in this world by always being in control of their emotions and their environment.

 

                I hope that through spreading this “light” and “knowledge”, all of mankind will be able to remember who they really are:  Gods together having mortal experiences, wanting to re-unite and become “ONE’ soul with “ONE” purpose:  to elevate all into immortality.

 

                I wish you could have met Kimberly!  I know you would have loved her.  She has helped teach me these things and truly “raised me from the dead”.  I believe that we are eternally connected and have a huge role to play in this life at this time.  I know you are looking down and cheering our success.

 

                Please know I love you both more now than I ever could before.  The memories will be there for all eternity for us to share in the future.

 

                I hope you are both doing well in your transition stage and… who knows but maybe we’ll see each other again in this world under different circumstances….

 

                                                                                                With Eternal Love,

                                                                                                Your Mortal Son,

                                                                                               

                                                                                                Dave

 

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Before I share from his journal recordings of yesterday, let me insert that these last two years have been the most grueling and difficult years of my life.  Yet, additionally, I have felt the most consistent well of peace along with a huge endowment of JOY from my relationship with Dave.  So much has been revealed to me BECAUSE of these experiences.  I feel profound… (words do not convey the depth of my gratitude) gratitude for the benevolence of that which has been brought to my remembrance and understanding because of this last chapter of my journey.  Yet, though it has been “grueling” for me, it has been extremely out of his comfort zone for my Beloved.  However, I AM proving… IT *IS* possible to “teach an old dog new tricks!”  NO ONE must be given up on as long as they are breathing and still manifest a shred of will to gain the treasures of the spirit. 

 

So, here is Dave’s journal entry from last night:

 

“I need to learn how to ‘listen to my heart’ for therein lies the answers to doing the right thing time and again and experiencing true joy and peace in this life.  This has been a hard thing for me to do in my life of physicality where the things of the spirit are ignored, the things that count the most.

 

What a trial I must be for Kimberly.  She truly has the patience of a saint!  She is a Christ!  She has achieved the ultimate goal of being in touch with your true self at all times, thus reaching the status of a Christ.  I will continue to work on my own journey to that place until I reach my destination.  It’s going to take a lot of hard work and dedication but it is what my heart desires to do with the rest of my life.  My reward is the most beautiful relationship I could possibly have with the most beautiful woman in the world who happens to be my eternal mate.  I want to support her in her role of teaching truth to a blind world and need to change so she can focus all of her attention on that calling.  I have improved in many ways but lack the final push up the mountain to the top where I hear is the greatest reward we can achieve in this life.  I have to want it more than anything else in this world!!

 

To this end, I dedicate and consecrate my time, talents and all I have been blessed with to the building up of this kingdom of God, which is ‘ME’.  I am going to get my house in order by constantly listening to my heart, letting it make the decisions for me and not my head (LUCIFER).  I will find more ways to serve my fellow men and think of their needs over my own.  I will stop holding ‘PITY PARTIES’ for myself when trials enter into my life but look on these moments with gratitude for these opportunities to expose my weaknesses.  Then I can take these lessons and learn from them who I truly am and what I am made of.  I will try to take the words and advice of Kimberly with humility and honor her in her willingness to teach me!  She is truly amazing in her patience and pure love for me and all other humans on this planet.  I honor her efforts and tenacity to deal with me and my weaknesses still after two years of time in this existence.  I am grateful for her and will strive to be grateful for everything and everyone who I am honored to assist in this life.  No more wasted days of wondering or worrying about my situations in this life because I know that my needs will be met as I “DO” the will of the Father, and trust in him in all things.

 

THIS IS LIFE ETERNAL!!

 

THIS IS THE DESIRE OF MY HEART!!”

 

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(to be continued and continued…)

 

TRUE *Love* #6 "PEACE! BE STILL!"

Dave and I just finished watching one of the most moving stories throughout all time, portraying the life of Gladys Aylward.  As depicted by Hollywood in the 1958 movie, "The Inn of the Sixth Happiness", the story presents the struggles of Gladys' life as she follows the most beautiful desires of her pure heart to "be in the service of her fellow man" as a Christian missionary in China.  Through deep and poignant struggles, Gladys exercises her emotional stamina and resolve to finally be ready and able to do that which she realizes she was inwardly called to China to prepare for and do:  save a group of 100 orphans by leading them through treacherous terrain through their war-torn country. 

Gladys had within her a well of living water which sustained her and from which she drew to strengthen her when pushed beyond her former abilities.  We each do.  It is this living water which is accessed as we dig in deep within in our climb to the top of the Stairway to Heaven.  No matter where any of us lie in our emotional strength, by zealous and continual dedication to the principles brought forth within this blog and originally presented by the one named "Jesus", we can each draw upon the same source to quench our own thirst.  This power is possible for any of us... and each of us.  Just because "Jesus" was called "the Only Begotten Son" does NOT mean that everyone else cannot become "adopted sons and daughters", grafted in to the same branch and drawing from the same pure power.

Please, Dear Reader, please allow me to assist you in your climb.  I have found the source.  I drink from it daily... always, in fact.  It is delicious, precious beyond any earthly value.  Freely provided for all... though the stipulations may seem rigorous.

To help bring the concept into an understandable realm, I will now share a couple experiences to illustrate:

 

In May of 2011 Krystal and I went with Tyler and Melani to the Arizona Science Center to see the "Body World’s Exhibit” that was being held there.  The Science Center had been a favorite pastime for my children and I since its opening.

One activity that we had often enjoyed at the center was entitled “Mindball”. Mindball is a two person game controlled by players’ brain waves in which they each try to control a ball's movement across a table by becoming more relaxed and calm. Wearing a band of electrodes around their head, each player tries to push the ball toward his opponent with the power of their still mind, using the electrical activity of their brains.  Only the low-frequency brain waves of alpha and theta register and are televised upon the nearby screen, signifying how "calm and relaxed" each person is... moment by moment.  By maintaining a relaxed and focused state, the player could move the ball over to his opponent’s side of the table, thus “winning” that round.  If there were distracting sounds or movements, the player’s brain waves would register on the screen as their attention was being drawn out of the relaxed mode.  To win a game of Mindball, then, you have to out-calm your opponent.

While waiting for our scheduled time at the body exhibit, we had been enjoying a few of the other permanent displays, finally finding ourselves at the Mindball table.  Just as we got there, a man who had obviously been playing it with members of his family got up and was complaining to a staff member that there was something wrong with the exhibit.  The employee expressed surprise as in his years’ experiences with it the game had never been inaccurate.  He sat down at one end of the table and asked if one in the hovering crowd wished to sit at the other end to check it out.  Six-year-old Krystal immediately responded.  She had done this (and very well, I might add) several times in the past.

I helped her adjust the strap of electrodes.  A long hollow clear tube lay on the table between her and the other participant (the staff member) containing a ping pong ball in the center position.  When the button was pressed to initiate the ball’s movement, it would progress to one or the other side (or back and forth between the two players) according to the players’ brainwaves.  Depending on the “match” of the two players, the game usually took anywhere from a couple to several minutes to complete the few feet of track. 

Krystal won the first round after just a couple minutes.  The employee was obviously intrigued and had them exchange positions, thus being able to “test” both sides of the game.  Again the second time Krystal won, and again it was after only two or three minutes.  Standing up, obviously impressed with this little child’s mental abilities, the staff member asked if anyone else would like to try.  I would have held back and allowed one of the other crowd members to join in, had not Krystal enthusiastically motioned to me saying, “Mommy, YOU try!”

So I sat down and, while placing the headband around my forehead, heard my Inner Guidance Councilor say “Love and Gratitude” while displaying a picture of Dr. Emoto’s frozen water crystals.  When the staff member began the game I showered loving gratitude from my heart.  Surprisingly, the game was over in just a few seconds.  Those watching gasped.  As I had had my eyes closed, I had shut out the competing (and thus attention-getting) views as well as not been able to personally witness what had taken place as evidenced on the monitors.  I heard people whisper stunned comments.  I also perceived that the staff member wondered if there WAS a problem with the game after all.  He indicated that we do it again, again trading places.  This was done.  Again, the ball had completed the track to the staff member’s side in just a few seconds.  I was now crowded with people asking, “What did you do?!  How did you do that?!”  Smiling with deep satisfaction that I had now proven for myself the validity and power of maintaining peaceful and loving gratitude of heart, I gave a very brief explanation before being called away by Tyler and Melani as it was now our scheduled time to attend the Body Exhibit.

I felt so thrilled by that experience.  No longer was the “attitude of gratitude” just a hazy notion.  I had proved its veracity.  Also I had proven that which I had believed and heard touted that “The one who loves the most is the one with the most power”.  Yes.  Truly, “Grateful love is the GREATEST ATTITUDE!”  This is true and I had just proved it.  At least for myself.  J

I also immediately realized that if, through this “reJOYcing” (the term I use to embody the action of sending out powerful loving gratitude from one’s heart)  my heart is able to empower my mind and I am able to move a ping-pong ball, that with sufficient reJOYcing I CAN, literally, MOVE MOUNTAINS!

Another exhibit at the Science Center that tantalized me and brought further awareness and understanding was entitled “Forces of Nature”.  Within this exhibit is an “Immersion Theater” where many people can participate at the same time.  Positioned for easy viewing around the perimeter of the raised and fenced off platform were three television-type screens which displayed a movie of several natural disasters.  In addition to the sense of sight presented, the immersion theater utilized several other senses.  Heat, air gusts and/ or water as rain or vapor were utilized as well as jolts and rocking or shaking movements of the platform itself to simulate several different “natural disasters”. 

All these various sensations are used to give those brave participants a sense of really “being there”.  All in the sense of “fun”.  And experience.  There is no frantic screaming while running from earth's cataclysms to safety.  Everyone involved know... "It's just a game!  I won't get hurt!  This will end in just a few minutes!"  Smiles abound on most faces as they wait and brace themselves for what surprise is coming next.

Those participating were thus allowed to experience the earth as never before. What does it feel like to be in the middle of a hurricane, tornado, wildfire, volcanic eruption, or monsoon? Utilizing the (correct) principle that “personal experience is the best teacher”, the exhibit enabled those participating to gain understanding and respect for the Earth and her continual movement and changes as a dynamic planet.  The changes experienced were dramatic.  Within just a few minutes of time, those who elected to, thus received exposure to several different “catastrophes” that our planet-mates now periodically experience that appear to wreck havoc, take life and destroy man-made structures as well as the natural environment.

The most intriguing aspect of this exhibit to me was watching the reactions of those participating.  Instead of anguish and tormenting feelings of victimhood, the sounds and body language expressed were those of enthusiastic expectancy and intrigue.  Experiencing this several times myself with various groups, I have never found one person who “cursed God” or became angry that “these things happened to ME!”  I have thought often, if each individual could just have a five minute view of the anticipation and "shouting for JOY" that they experienced BEFORE beginning their mortal life, then the experiences would take on more of the adventure and intrigue of this Immersion Theater.  And yet, I have come to view this life experience  as allowing for opportunities to open up trust, understanding and the opportunity to learn to respect Earth, our “planet-mates” and our experiences here together as dynamic, changing and wondrous beings. 

 
A favorite challenge I have often made myself is to stand ankle-deep in the ocean or within a wave pool, progressing deeper step-by-step until I am in to about my mid-section.  All the while I view myself sinking roots from my feet down into the depths of the ocean and anchoring into the core of the planet.  Trying to not be moved by the energy of the swelling waves, I endeavor to stand firm and strong.  My objective is to be as a rock, immovable, no matter the strength of the opposing force of water.  Additionally, I have thought often about the jolts of life itself:  “Can I stand (“be still!”) amidst chaos, bumps and confusion all around me—and experience a blessed life of JOY?”  Am I able to bring this same inner stillness as I move gracefully and while interacting with others in my day-to-day life?  I happen to believe that each of my earthly neighbors (seven billion [roughly] in all) is helping me to exercise that ability.

Perhaps you have seen the plastic children’s toy called a “Weeble.”  Maybe you’ve heard the jingle: “Weebles wobble, but they don’t fall down!”  Built upon a spherical base, the small plastic figurine presents the concept that it can get knocked over, pushed, or any number of actions perpetrated upon it, yet it will never permanently remain "down".  Indeed, a Weeble wobbles, but it immediately seeks to "right" itself into an upright position.  The messages of "Jesus'" Sermon on the Mount, if studied and applied, assist each of us to do likewise.  This current mortal reality allows each one of us to be "buffeted", perhaps lose our momentary balance emotionally, even bruise our foolish pride, but we can (and MUST!) each learn to take each “blow” by wobbling somewhat, perhaps, but not letting it bother us long term.

Indeed, through the process of learning to TRULY *LOVE* our self, we MUST learn to maintain control over our own emotions.  However, Dear Reader, please ponder!  Maintaining control OVER one's emotions does NOT MEAN that we do not feel feelings.  In fact, the higher one climbs their spiritual mountain, the greater will be the joys, the deeper the emotional well, the vaster one's empathy and caring and CAPACITY to feel and, thus, send out those feelings via e-motion.  Energy in Motion.

There is much to explore as we continue in what are the correct parameters concerning our feelings and emotions; how, when, where, to whom one shares.  When, how, where, to whom one should NOT share.  And, most significantly, how to stabilize after the sharing.

For those who have followed my blog, I wish to draw your attention back to the one I recently posted entitled:  "Please... Help... Me...!"  In it I expose my raw and deep feelings of that moment.  Feelings of vulnerability and blindness.  For anyone who has really known me in my life, I have seldom--if ever--acknowledged weakness or helplessness.  Though my life has been fraught with great unknowns, conflict and difficult experiences, I have continually drawn on the living waters within me to strengthen me and assist me in my journey.  I have always desired to remain strong (like a rock) in order to be a source of strength for others to glean strength from.  Yet, share those feelings I did when directed by my Inner Guidance Councilor.

Some time after sharing that post I was given clarity into the necessity of exposing my "nakedness".  Though I was quickly able to stabilize myself, discover answers and move forward correctly in my life's journey, that vulnerable, human part of me was a part of my experience and a real assistance to my growth.  Always has been.  That experience was for me necessary to publish, publically, my reliance upon the compassion of the world.  An opportunity for me to acknowledge my ability to feel emotion and the pain of the unknown... as I continued walking forward.  In strength, even if into further unknowns.  This we each must do. 

Each time we fall we must “Get right back up!”   We may, and must, acknowledge: “Ouch!  That hurts!”  Even wince as we reach out to rub the stubbed toe, etc.  We may cry out with the startle reflex or even pant or cry for a moment or two.  This is natural.  This is acceptable.

BUT, we are NOT a “victim.”  NEVER.  Unless we assign that status to our self.

We CAN each be "strong and immovable" emotionally... as we Truly *Love* our self with ALL our heart, might, mind and strength and keep climbing our spiritual mountain.

(Continue with us as we explore further terrain and ascend our mutual "Mount of Transfiguration", gleaning power, love and wisdom along the way.  And at the top... the FULLNESS of *JOY*!)  :-)

 

 

 

 

TRUE *Love* #5

Question:  "... what is it that a person has to do to eliminate stress and fear and be happy?"

Answer:  Learn to Truly Love yourself… AND ALL others equally.

Here are two simple yet profound illustrations:

A few years ago, while feeding lunch to the preschoolers entrusted to me within my home, I looked up from dishing up the plates and noticed the crest-fallen look on the face of one 4-year-old girl that I had had for a couple years. Having "taught" them continuously about living in peace and happiness, this "look" was not at all typical of Anna. I asked, "Anna, are you feeling happy?" "Nooooooooo," she quietly whimpered. I then asked: "How DO you feel?" She replied: "Saaaaad." "Do you LIKE to feel sad?" "Noooooooo." "How do you WANT to feel?" "Happy." "Okay, do you want my help, or can you find a happy thought by yourself?" "I want your help."

"Okay, what WERE you thinking about?" "I miss my Mommmmmmmy!" "What do you miss about your mommy?" "My mommy plays games with me and I love her." "Ahhh.... You like to play games with your mommy." "Yes." "Your mommy is kind to you." "Yes." "You got to be with your mommy for breakfast this morning." "Uh-huh." "Your mommy loves you and is fun to be with AND you get to be with her in the mornings!" "Yes." "You get to be with your mommy again tonight." "Uh-huh."

"You also like to come here and play with your friends, right?" "Yes." "What are some fun things you like to do here with me and your friends?" She was able to enumerate several. "Soooo... you have a mommy who loves you and plays games with you AND you get to play with your friends and learn and have fun with me, too!" "Yes." "Wow! You have happy, fun things to do in the mornings and evenings AND you get to play here and have fun during the day! WOW!"

By now, she was smiling. I asked her what she was looking forward to doing the rest of the afternoon. She listed off a few things, by now smiling and feeling empowered. Her conversation now brightly turned to her surrounding, listening, group of friends.

Marilyn, a friend, gratefully shared with me the following experience after she had been internalizing the principle:

Her husband, Bob, went in to the garage to clean it out, grumpy and banging things around. She asked him why he was upset. "Cause I have to clean out this d_____ garage!" She then verbally lead him through a similar change of perspective where he decided that he was NOT a "victim" but was, instead, CHOOSING of his OWN FREE WILL to be the one to clean out the garage for a variety of reasons, including: he did not want to pay money to anyone else to clean it out, no one else knew where and how he wanted everything, he wanted to throw out some things that he wanted to personally choose what and where they went, he really liked the way he felt to walk or drive into a clean, organized garage, relatives were arriving soon and he would feel better knowing that they would see his garage clean, etc.

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The development of humankind throughout the ages of *his-story* has taken collective society from a state of anarchy and victimhood through gradual yet sequential and necessary steps, stages that are also literally played out within the developmental stages of a human lifespan.  From emotional infancy through toddler- and child-hood, into puberty, the teenage years, young adulthood, physical maturity and beyond.  We will explore these ages and stages much, much deeper in coming venues, but suffice it to say that, though the physical vehicle of the body may grow up and achieve a sense of maturity, for many now on the planet they struggle with EMOTIONAL infancy or "the terrible twos".

It was the one known as "Jesus'" role (and now mine) to help those prepared to grow up emotionally and become a full-fledged and humane being.  This is my goal through these blog posts for those so willing. 

From lawlessness into justice ("an eye for an eye", equal restitution); from justice into mercy ("forgive 70 X 7" and "go the extra mile"); from forgiveness into compassion ("love thy neighbor as thyself") and then, finally, into realizing the Divinity of a full-fledged and Powerful God ("Lazarus Arise!").  No more an "Infant of God" or even a "Child of God" but completely and wholly a Mature and Self-Realized *God* with all the rights, privileges and powers that that entails.

Is this possible today?  YES, yes, a thousand times YESSSSS!

And this "Stairway to Heaven" outlines the upward path.  This digression into "TRUE *LOVE* is a necessary one to help give you a vision and a hope, allowing you to catch a glimpse of that which lies in wait for You... at the top of your own spiritual mountain.

TRULY, as a person immerses him or herself into the first commandment, realizing that "Thou shalt love the Lord Thy God..." means one's pure and holy feelings, there comes a POWER divine and unshakeable.

Choosing to live continually in peace and in alignment with one's True Self gives that one subtle yet profound ways to "take back and always maintain their power".  They live no more as a "victim" but as a person who DOES have control over their emotions and, thus, life. At times, that control may only be in our own choices to feel only peace. Usually, those choices lead to thoughts, actions and states of being that have vast potential to benefit not just our own self but many others around us.

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Indeed, True love exacts that:

I must love myself with all my heart (great, consistent, allowing, gloriously warm feeling), with all my might (passionate, focused energy) with all my mind (thoughts, statements and beliefs about myself) and with all my strength (my physical body acting in concert with those feelings).

As I allow and cherish my SELF and live in accord with the great unifying JOY of my body, thoughts, and feelings, my works (that which I DO) will all be a representation of who I really AM. I will then (naturally) treat all others with the same depth of allowance, joy and wisdom. I will perceive NO ONE as above or below me, while perceiving and treating ALL others as equally divine, beautiful, and worthy of my perfect love.

As I live in this manner, I will be accessing the pure balance of peace that was originally
experienced by "Me" before my incarnation within this current body.

(to be continued still...)  :-)

TRUE *Love* #4

How to TRULY Love MySELF

 

1.  Love, wisely love, myself... with ALL my heart, might, mind and strength. 

2.  Live the "Golden Rule", having as the "mark" of my "target" (or the eyes of my imagination focused upon) the alleviation of the needs of "the least among us" and the global and inevitable enJOYment of harmony and camaraderie for ALL.

3.  Release all expectations of receiving “love” or acceptance from others. 

4.  Without judgment for others’ actions and with my focus on “elevating the needy”, be continually aware of the guidance of my heart and the feedback it is giving me for my actions and thoughts… thereby gaining wisdom and insight to help choose further actions.

5.  My opinion of myself is all that matters.  Others’ opinions of me are their own business.

6.  RELAX.

7.  Be MY self.  Quit holding myself to someone else’s—any one else’s standard (a judgment).  Just follow my own, peaceful, happy heart!

8.  Do ONLY what I WANT to do.  I ALWAYS have a choice.  (If I feel I “have” to do something, I can search my mind for the reason why I feel I “have” to.  I can then “choose” to get out of doing it or “choose” to do it.  Because it’s MY “choice”, I am not a “victim”.  I maintain my power.  Therefore, I can be happy and “want” to do it.)

9.  Surround myself with happy people, feelings and situations; gracefully yet firmly and quickly leave any situation where my peaceful power is not respected.

10.  Treat ALL OTHERS as my equal.

11.  Live with Inner Peace and control of my e-motions at all times.

12.  Speak with power, truth, and kindness.

13.  Always do my best, realizing that that "best" can change from moment to moment.

14.  Live with no regrets.

15.  Learning wisdom from the hindsight of the past, BE the present moment.  Use the gift of this moment to create the future that aligns with who I TRULY AM.

TRUE *Love* #3

TRUE *Love*

 

True love exacts that

I must love myself...

 

with all my heart

(great, consistent, allowing, gloriously warm feeling),

 

with all my might

(passionate, focused energy)

 

with all my mind

(thoughts, statements and beliefs about myself)

 

and strength

(my physical body acting in concert with those feelings).

 
 As I allow and cherish my SELF

and passionately live in accord with the great unifying JOY of my

body,

thoughts,

feelings,

my works will all be a representation of who I really AM.

 

I will then

(naturally)

treat all others

with the same depth of allowance, joy and wisdom.

 

There will be NO ONE who will be above or below me.

I will perceive and treat ALL equally

as divine, beautiful, and worthy of my perfect love.

 As I live in this manner,

I will be accessing the
pure balance of peace that was originally
experienced by "Me."

TRUE *Love* #2

In the book “A Wrinkle in Time” (which has been a deep and integral part of my consciousness for over forty years), the book’s main character, Meg, initially tells her mother that she hates being so different and wishes she could just pretend she was “like everyone else”. As Meg’s life evolves through the story, her wish comes terribly true in the form of Camazotz, with its rows of identical houses and identical human beings; the planet is a parody of her extreme desire for conformity. Only after she recognizes the “evil” of this planet does she appreciate the value of being an individual. One of the central themes of the book is the celebration of human creativity and individuality, hailing as heroes and socially acknowledged “creative geniuses” Einstein, Bach, da Vinci, and Shakespeare.

So, is “conformity”, or the desire to be the same, what is meant by this principle of “oneness”?  NO, no, a hundred times no!  Conformity is the great lie.  We are all different and unique in our propensities though equal in our inherent value.  It is by embracing our differences and uniqueness… as we embrace and adore the uniqueness of everyone else, and consecrate our inherent strengths for the betterment of all humanity that we… and they… are blessed and strengthened further.  Conformity lies in defining the physical representation of each of us as being required to be just alike.  This, Meg, like each of us, will discover through the weaving together of her life’s experiences.

Both the climax and the central theme of the story is when and how Meg ultimately triumphs over regimented thinking and the conformity to group mentality (“evil”) and replaces this with “self and group cohesiveness and love” through her successful attempts to rescue her brother, Charles Wallace.  She discovers for herself that it is not through eloquent pleas or persuasive rhetoric, but through the sheer power of a love too great for words that she is able to be a “savior” to him.

Within this classic book, the triumph of love and the “laying down of one’s life for another” is one of the allusions to the historical figure, “Jesus”.   He is the first one cited as a fighter against “the Dark Thing”. Indeed, the whole imagery of light vs. darkness is traced back to the New Testament through the quotation: "And the light shineth in darkness; and the darkness comprehendeth it not."   Darkness can be understood through all acknowledged “scripture” as an allegory of a “lack of light or understanding”.  So, in following the hidden allegorical meaning, each mortal body has hidden within it a divine and holy spark of “light” or “profound love” that, though unseen and unheard, is shining forth and awaiting the day of discovery; the moment of self-knowing, the day of re-membrance... by embracing All That Is.

Another major Biblical reference in the book is the hymn of praise sung by the centaur-like beings on another planet, Uriel.  This song is translated into a very close paraphrase of lines from Isaiah and the Psalms "Sing unto the Lord a new song, and His praise from the end of the earth, ye that go down to the sea, and all that is therein".  “The sea” and “water” are often used scripturally as allegories to emotion or, better, the energy one mortal generates and feels within his body and then sends out into the atmosphere through his thoughts or by utilizing his other five sensory emitters.

One of the gifts Meg is given is an excerpt from St. Paul's Epistle to the Corinthians:  "The foolishness of God is wiser than men; and the weakness of God is stronger than men. For ye see your calling, brethren, how that not many wise men after the flesh, not many mighty, not many noble, are called, but God hath chosen the foolish things of the world to confound the wise; and God hath chosen the weak things of the world to confound the things which are mighty...."  Meg, though initially seen by herself and others as “foolish” and “weak”, then has emphasized to her that her gift is hidden yet powerful and unique:   “You have something that IT has not.  This something is your only weapon.  But you must find it for yourself.”

…

 “What is it I have got that IT hasn’t got?” Meg repeatedly wonders as she draws closer to the “war zone” where her brother is imprisoned away in the deeply hypnotic programming of “IT”, the “great brain” that seeks the conformity and dissolution of all uniqueness and show of human kindness.

As Meg finds her brother, “IT”, through Charles Wallace, reads her continual query and responds:  “…You have nothing that IT doesn’t have.”

“You’re lying,” she replied, and she felt only anger toward this boy who was not Charles Wallace at all.  No, it was not anger, it was loathing; it was hatred, sheer and unadulterated, and as she became lost in hatred she also began to be lost in IT.  The red miasma swam before her eyes; her stomach churned in ITs rhythm. 

“Her body trembled with the strength of her hatred and the strength of IT….  With the last vestige of consciousness she jerked her mind and body.  Hate was nothing that IT didn’t have.  IT knew all about hate.  “You are lying about that, and you were lying about Mrs. Whatsit!” she screamed.

“Mrs. Whatsit hates you,” Charles Wallace said.

“And that was where IT made ITs fatal mistake, for as Meg said, automatically, “Mrs. Whatsit loves me; that’s what she told me, that she loves me,” suddenly she knew.

“She knew!

“Love.

 
“That was what she had that IT did not have.

“She had Mrs. Whatsit’s love, and her father’s, and her mother’s, and the real Charles Wallace’s love, and the twins’, and Aunt Beast’s.

“And she had her love for them.

"But how could she use it?  What was she meant to do?

“If she could give love to IT perhaps it would shrivel up and die, for she was sure that IT could not withstand love.  But she, in all her weakness and foolishness and baseness and nothingness, was incapable of loving IT.  Perhaps it was not too much to ask of her, but she could not do it.

 
“But she could love Charles Wallace.

“She could stand there and she could love Charles Wallace.

“Her own Charles Wallace, the real Charles Wallace, the child for whom she had come back to Camazotz, to IT, the baby who was so much more than she was, and who was yet so utterly vulnerable.

“She could love Charles Wallace.

“Charles.  Charles, I love you.  My baby brother who always takes care of me.  Come back to me, Charles Wallace, come away from IT, come back, come home.  I love you, Charles.  Oh, Charles Wallace, I love you.

“Tears were streaming down her cheeks, but she was unaware of them.

“Now she was even able to look at him, at this animated thing that was not her own Charles Wallace at all.  She was able to look and love.

“I love you.  Charles Wallace, you are my darling and my dear and the light of my life and the treasure of my heart.  I love you.  I love you.  I love you.

“Slowly his mouth closed.  Slowly his eyes stopped their twirling.  The tic in the forehead ceased its revolting twitch.  Slowly he advanced toward her.

“I love you!” she cried.  “I love you, Charles! I love you!”

"Then suddenly he was running, pelting, he was in her arms, he was shrieking with sobs.  “Meg!  Meg!  Meg!”

“I love you, Charles!” she cried again, her sobs almost as loud as his, her tears mingling with his.  “I love you!  I love you!  I love you!”

~~~~~

As Meg discovered, true, unadulterated love is the strongest power in the universe and, quite literally, the answer to every question and every dilemma faced by any human in any experience at any time.  The secret, and what this earth-school curriculum is all about, is how to learn to live a purified, true, real, living, breathing love for our self and for each other… correctly and continually.  This is called “wisdom” (“charity” or “intelligence” in scriptural contexts).  Wisdom gives clarity, direction and strength to the often ambiguous principle commonly called by that ubiquitous mortal term “love”.  Experiencing the fullness of the e-motion “love” brings the experiencer one of incredible “joy”, while releasing that same energy outward for others to, potentially, receive from it as well.

So, what was Jesus alluding to in the above quoted scripture from John?  “These things have I spoken unto you, that my joy might remain in you, and that your joy might be full.”  It is the same “word” that, according to Hebrew mystical tradition in the Kabbalah (which means “that which is received”) is the most sacred word that a person may create.  It is called the Tetragrammaton (a Greek term that literally means the “four-lettered name”).  This is the unpronounceable and most sacred name of God, using the Hebrew letters of “yod,” “hey,” “vav,” and “hey”:  YHVH. 

While there were many additional names that God was known by, this was the personal name of God, the name by which the Divine presence could be summoned, invoked, and incorporated into prayers, and which was properly used to pay homage.  It is this name, the “unspeakable” and “personal” name of God, that was held so sacred that it was removed from the religious texts that form the basis of over one half of the world’s population.  It is also the same name that has been found “encoded into the DNA of life itself.”

And what is a “name”?  It is representative or symbolic of the character personified through envisioning the “works” of the person; or simply, that which that person is “known” for.  When a name is spoken, an image of a person and WHAT THAT PERSON DOES OR DID is brought up in the hearer’s mind.  Think “Hitler” or “Mother Teresa”, for example.  The mental picture evoked by “the name” is a summation of the life and characteristics that that person lived, at least as it is “known” by the hearer.

This four-letter-word J or “name” CAN NOT be spoken because it by-passes the vocal cords.  This four-letter-word CAN NOT be spoken because it by-passes even thought itself.  Indeed, the expression of this word can more properly be called a “song”.  Each individual mortal will learn to sing this “new song”, although he or she will “sing” it in a way unique to him or her; in his or her own way.  Its expression is not glorified through shouting nor confusion nor unseemly acts, but in a dignity of melting love and eternal poise and gentleness.  It is the praise of the soul that pours forth from the “circumcised” heart (which no longer has a hardened “protective” shell, wall, or coating).  It is only sung from a warm, swollen-open heart that cannot be withheld from utilizing ITS voice.  It is joy unstoppable.  It is the divine and pinnacle gift to humanity, though received and utilized by so very few… so far.

This “four-lettered”, “unspeakable name of God” is… *LOVE*! 

This new “Love Song” is the vibration that is brought forth through continual gentle-kindness, praise and gratitude for one’s own individual “self” and for all of mankind.  It is encoded as “the name (or light) of Christ”.  For those religious, the symbolic act of “Baptism” points to its higher purpose: when one chooses to live a life immersed in this “water” or e-motion or continual state of loving, grateful JOY… as a “Christ”, or “Master”, of this earth life.  It is “given to every man who cometh into the world”… yet has yet to be seen, received, and used correctly; an un-acknowledged and apparently unrecognized gift of inestimable value that has been gathering dust and sitting on a shelf within humanity’s rib cage.

Yet, this is the gift that Meg was reminded of already having.  This was the gift that she opened and
used which saved both her brother and her self.  This is the gift that I have learned is “beyond all comprehension” and is “unspeakable”.  This is the gift that all humans everywhere can unwrap at any time to help change both their own life as well as the whole entire world.  Just as a young child cannot fathom what the adults in a movie are really experiencing through a sexual experience, neither can one who has never felt this “orgasm of the heart” understand through the written or verbalized word alone.  It truly is “beyond all comprehension” and “unspeakable”.  Completely accepting this gift with one’s entire being as one would their “beloved” during sexual union is the uniting of “heaven” and “earth”.  This is the “pearl of great price” that lies hidden, buried in the field (the body), awaiting the rightful time of discovery.

But… true *LOVE* is NOT “compassion”.  Neither is it the surrendering of one’s *WILL* to any other mortal as Charles Wallace did to “IT” on Camazotz.  No, true *LOVE* is so much more simple, pure and all-encompassing than that.  True love is the correct worshiping of one’s individual “TRUE Self” with all one’s heart, might, mind and strength, continually and powerfully… WHILE viewing and treating all others likewise.  This is the real embodiment of the first two “commandments”!

Indeed, it is by continually singing this “new song” that one finds that he has, as Dorothy in the Wizard of Oz, arrived back home, having never really left it.  As T. S. Elliot eloquently penned, it is only then that we “know the place (‘home’, our True Self) for the first time”.

Dear Reader:  REMEMBER:  Helping YOU ascend—and arrive at—the pinnacle of YOUR “Spiritual Mountain”, the "Mount of Trans-figuration", this “Stairway to Heaven” or "Sermon on the Mount" is my life’s gift to YOU!  I will spend my life expounding and exhorting and elucidating that which “Jesus”/ Inpendius presented before me, the intelligence which is available to All… though veiled and hidden from those with impure intent.  Continue with me, if you will, and YOU will manifest the JOY, the Fruits, the Intelligence and Charity within your Self... to benefit all within Your sphere!  J

(to be continued...)