Gratefully,
the human family they were born into was nurturing and stimulating for them. Their canine mother was also a wonderful
caregiver and had attended to their bonding and establishing physical routines such
a “potty-training”. They adjusted very
easily and well to our new environment where we began having so much fun
watching them frolic and cavort as they curiously explored and discovered their
new surroundings.
Tiger
and Shadow had never been outside before, however. Outside and in their more “natural
environment” was where we planned to house them most of the time. To assist them in their transition, we put
them each in a small box before leaving their former home and during the
transportation in our car back to our home.
The two brothers quickly adapted to their new surroundings, but the real
fun and adventure began in helping them to explore their whole new world of
nature—outside!
Fresh
air, flies, grass, dirt, bugs, the sounds of traffic, the garage door opening
and closing, the car motor and movements, each has been an opportunity for them
to experiment on their curiosity, conduct safety tests and explore, all in the
innocence of young cat minds. I have
thrilled to get inside their brains and watch their thinking processes, to
witness their neurons connecting as they are foundationalized further. They love to hide from each other amidst the
small bushes and perform a surprise attack as the other is checking out that
area. Each has their own distinct
personality: Tiger more verbal, playful
and daring; Shadow more accepting and content.
They are each curious and get along great with each other, in no way
afraid of or scarred in relating to humans.
Though both are sweet-natured, it was immediately obvious that Tiger was
the “Alpha Male”. Shadow quickly assumed
his role in their hierarchy as the “Beta”.
I
have thought often of my experiences the first few weeks while in Ecuador. After arriving in Quito near midnight of September
20th, 2008, Krystal (then age 4) and I began settling in. We had a great time walking and
watching and interacting (at least on our somewhat limited basis) with the
people, food, language and culture. I
pondered often how like a young toddler I was.
My “surrogate mother” was Diego Bonilla, the young man whose family we
rented from who generously volunteered to show us the area and help us get
established. It was him who mostly
assisted my “foundationalization” process while maneuvering through Ecuador. This
included getting a feel for how to find our way to the places where we could
buy food and other necessities for our little apartment as well as finding a
nearby park and preschool for Krystal to meet her social needs.
Like a young child just beginning to
walk in his new world, I did not feel comfortable for those first few days and
weeks in venturing very far from Diego (my “mommy”) and our home base. I would focus my mind on orienteering which
direction from our apartment we were heading, the turns we were making, any helpful
landmarks, how far away we were getting, and any and all helpful information. Gradually, through more and more experience,
I gathered greater confidence in my own physical GPS system.
This is just what Tiger and Shadow began doing: cavorting and enjoying their
new surroundings as they got to know and trust us and their new world.
Alas,
Monday morning, Tiger got spooked and ran off through the open garage door when
Dave left in the car. At least, we think
this is what must have happened. Although we have walked and driven around
looking and calling and remain hopeful that he will find his way back, that may
not be the case.
Yet…
I found on Craigslist a female cat (1 ½ years old) that was beautiful and
available. When Krystal arrived home
from school Monday, I shared with her the story of the disappearance of Tiger
amidst tender sad tears from us all. Her
hopes were revived when I continued by adding the possibility of this new
(albeit older and mature) cat. Low and
behold, after making arrangements and visiting the family, the young son
tearfully was unable to let go of “Peaches” and we discovered that Peaches had,
in fact, a seven week old female kitty that they had been going to keep and raise. After several minutes of the tears of his
young owner and his ensuing conversation with his mother, the family volunteered
for us to adopt the baby kitty instead.
We wondrously and gratefully brought her home, named her “Pearl” and
welcomed her into her new family.
Tiger
has still not found his way back to us.
But… we have our two baby kitties after all, one of them being female
and with the possibility which we wanted all along of potentially becoming a
mother and providing us the opportunity to assist her and witness the births
and early foundational process of new canines.
Shadow
and Pearl have had quite the journey these two days of establishing their
relationship. Shadow, once the docile “Beta
Male” with Tiger, has found himself suddenly elevated in the feline hierarchy
of our household. At least, he is doing
his instinctual best to assert himself there.
Pearl has been amazing! Though
calm, gentle, and much smaller, she has shown that she can hold her own, even hissing
back at his more aggressive actions. We
are doing what we can to assist their relationship and bonding process. Hopefully, soon, they will be the best of
friends and peacefully coexist….
~~~~~
I
left you, Dear Reader, in my last post, with the opportunity to glimpse inside
my heart. I had not foreseen the
experience which prompted my words, nor the charge from my Guidance System to
share my vulnerability and weaknesses publically. Nevertheless, both of these came; and I
did.
As
with so many of my life’s experiences, it is only with HINDSIGHT that the
understanding has come. As I have
trusted, IMPLICITLY, my Directors (my “Urim and Thummim”), I have flowed
through many forks in the road, most of them rocky and seen by others as difficult, but
nonetheless, all of them proving (eventually) worthwhile. Truly, the way is most simple when one learns to completely submit and trust continually and unfailingly the One who Guides with surety.
My
experience of my tenuous situation on Friday, along with my dream and resulting
experience and my publically and emotionally sharing it, was to prove beneficial
to many individuals. Each of you who were curious (and brave) enough to read it
were given an opportunity. An
opportunity to feel. To reason. To imagine.
To put yourself mentally in my position. To be human. To judge.
To make a choice.
Of
those few who publically responded, all were acting to the best of their
awareness. That awareness came because
of their own, individual, unique past experience. It is experience that establishes one’s “humanity”. We are taught, foundationalized, how to
perceive and interact with one another.
Some who read of my plight covered their humanity with disgust and “it
serves her right!” Some, with their own
perception of “love”, responded with advice.
Others reached out with tender feeling and angst that they were not able
to do anything more (at least they reasoned) than “I’ll pray for you.” Regardless, each one who read or were
apprised of my life’s circumstances reacted appropriate for them and their
current understanding and ability to live up to their level of understanding.
Never
intending to, yet I have lived a life that has so often been a “rock of offense”
to many others. My experiences, choices,
appearance have often grated on others and collided with their humanity. Certainly I have not seemed to be living the
acceptable and “honorable” ways “of the world”.
Many
who tentatively read my plea wondered what someone in authority (their “true
messenger”, respected friend, Bishop, father, mother, etc.) would comment or,
perhaps, mandate them to do or refrain from doing. Unbeknownst to them, I have been aware of
their reactions. I have seen into their
hearts and understood their choices.
Free of condemnation.
Without
revealing the identity of the one who wishes to remain anonymous for now, there
was One who acted from their true foundationalized humanity and made it
possible for a turn-around of events. I
now hold a car title, as well as this home, this beautiful house that Dave
built for me, squarely and legally in my name.
These crucial steps have solidified my being “settled” and prepared to
completely take up my role, my joy, my reason for living.
My
former preparation, coupled with this 53 ½ years of present mortal life
experience, has garnered me with precious jewels of insight and wisdom. Partnered with my honed ability to “see
through the veil” and receive “light and truth” through the instrument now at
my disposal (my “Urim and Thummim”), I am ready. Ready to provide hope… Actual and Reliable
Hope… to provide for the needs of “the least among us”. I understand their plight. I get their weaknesses, their
vulnerabilities, their struggles, their feelings of helplessness and
hopelessness. I understand the human
frailties as well as the power-struggles.
I
get the “Alpha’s”, the “Beta’s” and even the “Omega” Natures. I have lived and proven the principles that I
have been taught. And, won’t those
willing to fully open their hearts and minds to receive be surprised! Everything that we have been taught to accept
as correct and proper, or at least “normal” parts of existence… are 100% diametrically
opposed to the rightful order of things.
I
volunteer that the time is NOW, there ARE those prepared to come forward, ready
and, most of all, WILLING to take up their own rightful positions. As servants.
Servants of mankind. Assisting
man to become kind. Gentle. Submissive.
As the pure little children they originally were created to be. Yet with gratitude and willingness to assist properly
now.
Dave
has taken up his rightful position in our relationship, as my equal, empowered
partner, utilizing his true strengths alongside mine in a balanced, cooperative
unit. Although his former mortal
training had done great battle with his pure heart, my tremendous love for him
along with my not stepping down from my inner power, has tempered those traits
that he used to believe were rightfully his.
The attributes society defines as “masculine strengths” have been honed into
the pure and healthy characteristics of his “True Self”. He has subdued his “natural man”, or, in
religious terms, “the dragon/ beast/ Lucifer has been slain”. He is now a strong, beautiful, *Gentle
Man*. As nature originally
intended. And, never more peaceful,
happy, consistent and supportive of me and my role. Ready to assume His!
Together,
with Krystal and any others who will eventually join with us and hone the
principles of Christ that I will now expound, we WILL succeed in “cutting short
the work of the *Father* in righteousness.”
Truly, there is NO ORGANIZATION on the earth, NO RELIGIOUS SECT that
contains the “fullness”… save it be man’s own being. Though very seldom successful in past “his-story”,
those who join their pure and wise hearts with me and mine WILL establish a
Zion, a truly godly society. Though people for the most part have seldom been willing to
rely upon their True Self, the time is NOW when, through the principles lit up
through this “Stairway to Heaven”, we will be able to gather spiritually in the
“True Order of Prayer” and, with correct “charity”, regenerate our selves, our relationships,
our planet.
As prophesied 170 years ago:
“And the arm of the Lord shall be revealed; and
the day cometh that they who will not hear the voice of the
Lord, neither the voice of his servants, neither give heed to
the words of the prophets and apostles, shall be cut off from
among the people;” (D&C 1:14)
“The Lord” = the
emotional sense of deep and abiding peace one feels in their heart.
“The Lord’s servants”
= the mental reasoning and imagining abilities along with the strength and
capacity of the physical body and its senses.
“Prophets” = those
who have understood, internalized and live the complete standard taught by their
"Lord" as exemplified by the one known as “Christ”.
“Apostles” = those
who administer the work of the peaceful government as overseen by the “Prophets”.
So, in plain, *Actual
Truth* terms:
People will figure
out the “mystery” of how to listen to their own hearts. They will learn to purely FEEL and act from
intuition (as contrasted with “gut instinct” which will be the subject of
further posts). They will perceive and
hone energy, light, intelligence. As
this begins to happen inside individuals, societies will even learn to harness
this energy for the collective benefit (both good and bad) and call it
electricity, technology, and progress. Many
will learn to act more and more humanely.
The mind and body will SERVE the heart. And the heart will serve the good of all.
The arm, which does
the action of the body, will act in concert with the pure foundationalized
feeling (“The Lord”). Those who choose
not to hear and obey their own pure feelings, or listen to their own
unadulterated mind, or even to a “True” (vs. false and commonly honored) “Prophet”
or “Apostle” will end up physically dying and not making good the promises of
those who do come into compliance with Nature’s stipulations. Those who DO open their eyes to see and their
ears to hear, will find their way back to the “Tree of Life”, leaving “Babylon”
through the “wilderness” to enter into the “Promised Land”, and become a “Zion”
people, dwelling with “one mind, one heart” and having “no poor among them”.
Again, I send out the
invitation:
“Come, follow me.” Allow me to teach you and prod you into the
ways of righteousness. Let me assist you
in climbing the “Stairway to Heaven”.
Truly, it is not hard. As more
and more join together, the way will even get more and more light. Simple.
Blessed. JOY-filled.
Truly…
There is NOTHING of
ANY importance except the simple words of Christ given in the Sermon on the
Mount. There’s nothing else to religion
or that needs to be done! And you don’t
need an organized church to teach you these things! These correct principles are ALREADY in your
heart. Just buried. I can help you lift back your veils, polish
the facets of your own jewels and learn to see and hear “the Lord” of your own
kingdom… your own peaceful Guidance System.
Together, we CAN… and
WILL… “cut short the *Father’s* work in righteousness”.
Many have gone before
us, clearing the path and lighting the way.
They and their pure messages will not let us down now.
Please join with me
that their work will NOT have been in vain.
I love you.
They love you.
May you learn to love
you! Completely. With All of your “heart, might, mind and
strength”. And your neighbor likewise. In correct balance.
I give my life to
help you.
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