I sat there in the booth at BYU’s “Cougar Eat”, sitting opposite my
childhood friend and LDS Ward-mate, Brenda Frazier, as she enthusiastically
shared how she was looking forward to her future mission. Wonderingly, I asked my Inner Guidance
Councilor if *I* was to, also, plan on and serve an LDS mission; after all, the
required (at that time) age of 21 for women was only a year away for me. With my heart and propensity to be everything I could possibly be for the
Lord, surely a mission was in my future.
But, while seated and reflecting back my respect and approbation to
Brenda, I received my soft yet firm answer:
“No. I have a different kind of
mission reserved for you.” And that was
it. I put no further thought into the
matter but continued on in my life, pouring the depths of my being into every
task I undertook, dedicating each of these to the service of mankind and my “Father”.
Through the ensuing years, I received many, many other “hints” and
proddings from deep within, many trying to assist me to realize that I was, truly
and purposefully, somehow *different* than others. Even when CMN (the “True—MWAW—Messenger” to
those who have left “The Telestial World”, the” Babylon” of the current LDS Church) gave me hints with his mortal
vocal cords (in contrast to those from my inner realms), I put them on a back
mental shelf, still wanting to continue seeing myself as just one of everyone
else. When he would give me veiled hint
after hint, even some publically (disguised as “rebukes”), I was not yet
completely ready to accept them for what they were. “You are a ‘Rock of Offense’ and offend everyone. Your Spirit is not like theirs!” “YOU do not need a prophet!...” etc. etc. Even when he publically declared that my brain
is not wired like any other and that I was a type of “savant”. I
would just wonder, “What? Why?”
To me, a savant was usually socially backwards yet extremely
intelligent far in excess of what would be considered the “norm” in one
specific field or another. I knew that
that was not me. Smart, okay. “Extremely intelligent?!” I don’t think so! Yes, I had done well in my educational
pursuits. I was conscientious and
applied myself in addition to having some aspects of the educational realm come
fairly easily to me. When CMN officially
labeled Robbie Pace as the “Autistic Savant of the MWAW” I was intrigued… and
relieved. YES! *HE* can have that title and role!
Yet, I was to finally learn… and embrace… that there is another type of
“savant”. And, as witnessed by my taking
up my cross on March 21st of this year and beginning in earnest to
write and expound the words of Christ, I understand, finally, just why I AM
*different*, and how essential to this world my difference is. Never feeling any more special than any
other, yet I realize… and fully accept… my uniqueness and its contribution to
each and every one else realizing… and accepting… THEIRS. My offering to humanity is the necessary
ingredient in establishing world peace… one heart and mind at a time. This I will gratefully continue to offer… to
all prepared and willing to leave the “Terrestrial World” or “the wilderness”…
and come with me into “the Garden”… fully realizing the *Life, Liberty and the Pursuit
of Happiness” as originally intended.
Fully capable (at that point) of offering THEIR crucial uniqueness… for
me and everyone else to benefit from.
My difference:
I was born into this world fully attached with an unbreakable bond to
my “Eternal Mother”. I hear and obey her
voice. SHE is my “Inner Guidance
Councilor”. Her direction has provided
me motivation, encouragement, my roadmap… every step of the way. Yes, she has led me through rough and
rigorous terrain. She has held nothing
back in my tutoring. I have had to hold
on for dear life… often… not knowing where she was taking me (physically,
mentally, emotionally)… just knowing that she was the ONLY REALIABLE SOURCE I
HAD! And… I trusted her. Still do.
Always will.
Though I have been deeply and scathingly judged by some, particularly
during these last 10-15 years as I have been led more and more away from the “broadway”
of those accepted mores of our culture, I have accepted, and come to understand,
just what being my form of “savant” means and that it is, truly, my gift to
apply for the benefit of humanity. My
gift is my inseparable bond with my *True Self*.
My last post revealed some of my earlier experiences in seeing the
attributes of humanity and some that are juxtaposed to my own strengths. There have been many, many more chances for
observing these differences between myself and others. Indeed, I have never been “poor in Spirit”,
though I have been required to feel “poor” and vulnerable at times. MY gift to humanity is the awareness of the
absolute necessity of and the ability to… be
always “in control of my emotions”. This I will assist the dedicated seeker of
Intelligence to find for them self.
Although our current society is fixated on the physical,
quasi-intellectual and financial ladder of success, as I will expound and
exhort, there is, ultimately, only one lasting measure of success. That is the health of the heart. Not the physical heart and its abilities to “pump”,
mind you; but the energetic True Heart, that which is the conduit for the
Spirit, that which allows for intelligence and connection to one’s “Eternal
Mother”. Their True Self.
Yet, like each organ of the spiritual vehicle, the physical organ that
correlates with it (and here we are specifically addressing the heart) is a
representative and can offer valuable insight.
For those worried about their physical heart, two tests are routinely
used to measure their risk of experiencing a life-threatening bout with heart
disease. These are administered easily
and noninvasively and are routinely given.
One is called the exercise stress test, or treadmill test. During this test, a patient is put on a
treadmill where they exercise to the point that they can’t go on. It is at this point that the second (much
more simple) test is applied. The heart
rate recovery measures how long the heart requires to return to its normal
resting rate. Doctors usually order
these tests when they suspect that a patient may have a heart in trouble. The healthier a person’s heart is, the
quicker it returns to its normal beat; the less healthy the heart is, the
longer it takes to recover from something like an exercise stress test.
Okay…
so that deals with the physical heart, that which most people in our current
society have become increasingly alarmed with.
But,
although very related, there is a far, far, far, far (etc. etc.) more serious
threat. That is the decline and threat
to the spiritual heart. Yet, likewise, a very similar test is applied
on an emotional level to determine one’s spiritual heart health. Again, the words of Christ and my elucidations
will assist both in administering the two tests and their interpretations as
well as in the explanations of the protocol for healing and strengthening the
spiritual heart.
Before
I continue with the exhortation of HOW to take your own (or your child’s)
emotional pulse, I will present for the public view my first and greatest
miracle: the resurrection of my “Beloved”,
Dave. (The name Dave means “Beloved”. And, yes, Dave’s mother was inspired to name
him Dave, him being my partner and love in this life while spiritually being my
firstborn “Beloved Son”. And, yes,
though this post is somewhat premature as he has not completely finalized his
ascent “up the mountain”, it is time to present the process and give the reader
a representation and vision.
So,
with Dave’s permission… and encouragement… I will share here first a letter
that he wrote several months ago to his recently deceased parents. Following that I will share excerpts from his
journal entry yesterday (his “homework”).
After this post today I will proceed to give the *recipe and provide the
parameters of how any (dedicated) one can apply these principles and (with
diligent focus and sufficient will) climb this same “Stairway to Heaven”.
~~~~~
Letter from Dave Seely to his (Deceased) Parents August 4, 2015
Dear Mom and Dad,
It
was an honor to be raised by you at this time in our probation on this earth,
when the fullness of the Gospel Truly is here on this earth, but so
misunderstood by almost all. You never
had a chance to read or accept The Sealed Portion of The Book of Mormon even
tho it was here before you both passed on.
I would have introduced it to you and had some wonderful discussions
with both of you about the things you taught me and the things I know now to be
true. But I found it too late to have
the opportunity.
You
both worked hard during your lives raising your children and doing what you
thought was right for us. But you failed
to teach us how to “feel” or express our emotions and how to learn to work
through them. Instead, we always kept
them inside and allowed them to create barriers between us and others. This also caused us to not be able to truly
listen to our Holy Ghost (True Selves), which is the main purpose for our
existence.
The
next time you enter mortality, I hope to have helped create for mankind a
blueprint for finding true and everlasting happiness in this world by always
being in control of their emotions and their environment.
I
hope that through spreading this “light” and “knowledge”, all of mankind will
be able to remember who they really are:
Gods together having mortal experiences, wanting to re-unite and become
“ONE’ soul with “ONE” purpose: to
elevate all into immortality.
I
wish you could have met Kimberly! I know
you would have loved her. She has helped
teach me these things and truly “raised me from the dead”. I believe that we are eternally connected and
have a huge role to play in this life at this time. I know you are looking down and cheering our
success.
Please
know I love you both more now than I ever could before. The memories will be there for all eternity
for us to share in the future.
I
hope you are both doing well in your transition stage and… who knows but maybe
we’ll see each other again in this world under different circumstances….
With
Eternal Love,
Your
Mortal Son,
Dave
~~~~~
Before
I share from his journal recordings of yesterday, let me insert that these last
two years have been the most grueling and difficult years of my life. Yet, additionally, I have felt the most
consistent well of peace along with a huge endowment of JOY from my
relationship with Dave. So much has been
revealed to me BECAUSE of these experiences.
I feel profound… (words do not convey the depth of my gratitude)
gratitude for the benevolence of that which has been brought to my remembrance
and understanding because of this last chapter of my journey. Yet, though it has been “grueling” for me, it
has been extremely out of his comfort zone for my Beloved. However, I AM proving… IT *IS* possible to “teach
an old dog new tricks!” NO ONE must be
given up on as long as they are breathing and still manifest a shred of will to gain the treasures of the spirit.
So, here is Dave’s journal entry from
last night:
“I need to learn how to ‘listen to my
heart’ for therein lies the answers to doing the right thing time and again and
experiencing true joy and peace in this life.
This has been a hard thing for me to do in my life of physicality where
the things of the spirit are ignored, the things that count the most.
What a trial I must be for
Kimberly. She truly has the patience of
a saint! She is a Christ! She has achieved the ultimate goal of being
in touch with your true self at all times, thus reaching the status of a
Christ. I will continue to work on my
own journey to that place until I reach my destination. It’s going to take a lot of hard work and
dedication but it is what my heart desires to do with the rest of my life. My reward is the most beautiful relationship I
could possibly have with the most beautiful woman in the world who happens to
be my eternal mate. I want to support
her in her role of teaching truth to a blind world and need to change so she can
focus all of her attention on that calling.
I have improved in many ways but lack the final push up the mountain to
the top where I hear is the greatest reward we can achieve in this life. I have to want it more than anything else in
this world!!
To this end, I dedicate and consecrate
my time, talents and all I have been blessed with to the building up of this
kingdom of God, which is ‘ME’. I am
going to get my house in order by constantly listening to my heart, letting it
make the decisions for me and not my head (LUCIFER). I will find more ways to serve my fellow men
and think of their needs over my own. I will
stop holding ‘PITY PARTIES’ for myself when trials enter into my life but look
on these moments with gratitude for these opportunities to expose my
weaknesses. Then I can take these
lessons and learn from them who I truly am and what I am made of. I will try to take the words and advice of
Kimberly with humility and honor her in her willingness to teach me! She is truly amazing in her patience and pure
love for me and all other humans on this planet. I honor her efforts and tenacity to deal with
me and my weaknesses still after two years of time in this existence. I am grateful for her and will strive to be
grateful for everything and everyone who I am honored to assist in this
life. No more wasted days of wondering
or worrying about my situations in this life because I know that my needs will
be met as I “DO” the will of the Father, and trust in him in all things.
THIS IS LIFE ETERNAL!!
THIS IS THE DESIRE OF MY HEART!!”
~~~~~
(to
be continued and continued…)
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