It is possible, if not
highly probable, that this Valentine Gift of Love will not reach its intended
mark. Like an archer whose arrow takes
perfect aim, yet the target de-materializes midst the arrow’s flight, this
post, my Cupid’s Arrow, may likewise, not reach its mark. Yet, perhaps, there is another object,
another heart, which lies directly behind the original target. Perhaps this investiture of my time, love,
energy and intense hope will not be in vain.
Perhaps, upon dematerialization of my arrow’s target, another, more
appropriate target, will materialize.
Regardless, this Valentine
Gift of Love is not given for its intended mark alone. This Valentine Gift of Love is given as a
symbol of my investiture of time, love, energy and intense hope… in the arrow
itself. The “arrow,” the Truth which I
send out via recorded “word,” like a “sword of truth,” has the power to divide
asunder the hardest and most impenetrable matter in existence… a closed heart. Though my “aim” is my and my Beloved’s *Children,*
perhaps others may be “adopted in” and become “heirs” to the blessings of my “arrow”. Thus, my hope may not be in vain after all. Thus, my investiture of time, love, and
energy will fulfill the “measure of its creation”.
So, in dedication:
This post (including those
that follow) is written from the depths of my being, the purest and most
intimate “Holy of Holies” of my Soul, for:
*YOU*
Specifically, the
biological as well as spiritual offspring of David and I: My *Target.*
~~~~~
Because they do not
understand him presently, yet those same individuals in times past would have
ardently declared that they knew him well, David’s biological children have
brought much self-declared “heart-break”, “hell” and “misery” upon
themselves. Though it would have brought
me great JOY to assist in their emotional healing, none of them have allowed
themselves as yet to approach me.
Instead, they have utilized their current viewpoints and those that they
have chosen to “see” for them and “interpret truth” for them, thus bringing
about even greater and deeper “hell” and “heart-break” for themselves. Their fear, judgments and closed minds have
damned up what could have been beautiful flowing experiences and relationships
for both themselves and their children. Yet,
because they have thus far operated from spiritual blindness and acted from
their ignorance, I freely and completely forgive their judgments and actions
towards and on account of me.
However, again, this post is
my attempt today to offer David’s (and my) biological children a way out of
their misery and self-delusion. My
profound hope is that they will read my words with “sincere intent” in an
effort to scientifically, faithfully, and integrously “test” the veracity of it…
just as they desire others to “test” their beloved Book of Mormon. (Moroni 10:4: "And when ye shall receive these things
[the Book of Mormon], I would exhort you that ye would ask God,
the Eternal Father, in the name of Christ,
if these things are not true; and if ye shall ask (1)
with a sincere heart, (2) with real intent, (3) having faith in Christ, he will
manifest the truth of it unto you, by the power of the Holy Ghost.")
I will, in time,
reveal why I now refer to my “Beloved” as “David” instead of the name that he
has been known as by most: “Dave.” “Dave”
no longer applies. (For now, ponder on
the first and second tokens of the LDS Temple Endowment.) Bear with me, though. For now, as you read, realize that I mean the
same man. Or rather, the one that you
believe represents your mortal father.
In truth, as your broken heart realizes and cries out, “he” no longer
exists. It is this man, or your
understanding of who he was and your memories of who you believe he was, that has
been transformed. Though you “think” you
want him back, if you could just open your hearts, stretch the sinews of your
mind, you just might, in time, realize that this “resurrection” of his which
could allow for a new and more correctly defined relationship with him, might
bring you even more joy, more hope, more personal happiness than the former “daddy”
ever did or could.
Yet, David, my “Beloved”
and your transformed “daddy” cannot
deny how his life has changed. If you
were to sincerely hear his heart, you would be struck with the profundity of
his words. He was “miserable” before
meeting and “transforming”… with me. He
was “lonely”. He was cut off to anyone
emotionally. He was “acting” and “pretending”
to be the person that he thought he was “supposed to be” in life; the man that
his parents, culture, peers, religion had “programmed” him to be. Though he did, indeed, enjoy precious moments
with you, and it is this representation of your relationship with him that you
mourn, because he was not living true to who he really was, his character was a
“lie” and, thus, any and all relations he had with anyone else were “adulterous”
and illusions based upon that lie.
In time, I will publish a
book detailing much more of his experience and transformation. Incrementally, in my blog, I will post his
journey. Today’s Valentine Gift, though,
will be relatively brief. It is my
Valentine Gift to him in an attempt to initiate and promote the healing of our
precious children. Please, if you have
been brought to this point of reception, please continue to allow your heart to
expand and continue to read… with real intent.
~~~~~
Two years ago, I published
a post entitled: “When Nature Wants a
Man” and implored all to read and ponder it. (See my blog post of February 12, 2015.) I truly thought at that time that I would be
allowed to expound upon the as yet unrevealed truths regarding becoming fully
human. But I was stopped. The time was not yet ripe. It is now.
Today is the day. Today’s post
marks the end of David’s *21-Day-Challenge,* a day of momentous change for all
humanity. Truly, Nature wants a “Man.” The time is now. There is much to reveal, many to have their
hope enlivened. I again implore each of
you to read and ponder the inspired poem that I will now begin to expound upon,
using both the words of “Christ” in Matthew 5, 6 and 7 and Dave/ David as an
example: “When Nature Wants a Man.”
On this holi-day in our
culture when hearts are expanding and reaching out, may YOURS warmly
expand. May YOU give to YOURSELF the
gift of allowing YOU to be within my arrow’s range. I invite you to (1) with a sincere heart, (2) with real
intent, (3) having faith in Christ read my
blog posts (even my books when they become available). Meet with your father and I in the same spirit. Do NOT try to “change him back.” You will only bring upon yourself more “misery.” Instead, Allow him to manifest HOW he is a “changed
man” with a new heart. WHY he has chosen
to “never go back” to who he used to be.
And, most of all, WHO HE IS and WHO YOU ARE.
The
promise: JOY 100 times beyond the level
of “heart-break,” “misery,” and “hell,” which you have until now experienced; the
“full measure of YOUR creation.”
With a love you
do not yet fully understand, Kimberly… AND David.
P.S. Please stay tuned for further installments…
