On My "Mark"

OH, WHAT A RIDE IT HAS BEEN ! :-) For those who have followed my blog in the (distant) past, my posts from when I was in Ecuador as well as my life's story are now compiled within the first two volumes of my book: "The JOY of Harmony." However, I am now preparing to round another sharp corner and embark upon another chapter of my journey. Oh, what an adventure this has been ! :-) Upon getting my instructions from within in June of 2008 to "sell all that I have and go live among the poor... in South America," then getting more specifics which propelled me to the great land of Ecuador, I have dug deeper and deeper to that stillness and depth within me. My "treasure in heaven," my "holy of holies." My inner vision and understanding have changed immensely. To recap the last nearly five years since my return: I found upon becoming somewhat re-established within the USA, again in Gilbert, AZ, in June of 2009, that *I* had indeed changed. No longer did I have the propensity to will myself to deal with money as I had earlier been able to. Never having the fixation upon "stuff" or the "dollar sign" as most others in our culture do, still I tried to engage back within the culture that I had been raised in and had formerly found somewhat comfortable. I write extensively about my experiences in my book, but suffice it to say that I tried many ways to "make a go of it" to keep the peace and serenity that I had found while also interacting with others and nurturing and providing for the emotional, physical and financial needs of my young daughter, Krystal. Everything that I attempted, though being within my howbeit stretched realm of comfort and while giving service to others (which is where I find my "wholeness" and JOY), still did not bring sufficient income to meet our meager needs. Finally, after Christmas of 2011, I began an alternate path of "homelessness" and vulnerability that I had never experienced before... with my beautiful (then) seven-year-old in tow. What a palette of experiences and lessons have ensued since then! Oh, how necessary that chapter has been for me. Oh, how I have marveled time and again at Krystal's ability to trustingly flow with me as I trusted my inner guidance. Oh, how I have been amazed time and again as she has wonderingly commented that she felt so blessed and that her life was so fun. ("I am the luckiest girl alive!") WOW! I have been able to witness repeatedly the great gift of her life while having nearly no THINGS and the glorious gift of gratitude (the GREATEST ATTITUDE) that that has allowed. Yes, I will share much more about this later and, especially, within my books. Since August of 2012, we have found ourselves living in others' homes (usually for a few months at a stretch) while trading services and/or paying rent for the use of a bedroom or two. I was able to find a job in October of 2012 working as a CARE-Giver of the elderly and physically handicapped. I have found great satisfaction in my opportunities while learning further of the needs in that area, both of their physical and emotional decline and the needs that ensued as well as the absolute necessity of the establishment of the *Worldwide United Foundation* and its benefit to that particular sector of humanity. Progressing louder and more incessantly within my heart, however, came the call to "let it all go" and to not even TRY to "serve two masters." Although I will only and CAN only follow my holy heart, still I wondered how I would be able to do that (let go of "Mammon") and what "that" would even look like. As this call became louder and louder, I still found it absolutely staggering to have the experience I did of December 21, 2013. As I made my way west along Red Hills Parkway over the bluff on the north side of town and overlooking the city of St. George, Utah on that Friday, I rounded one of the many turns and there, directly in front of me and perfectly written in the clear blue sky was the following, ledgered with a heavenly quill and with ink of voluminous and brilliant white clouds: "Quitt!" (and underlined). I was stunned and so wished I could stop my car, linger and ponder on what lay literally in front of my eyes. Yet, because of the traffic, the lack of a real shoulder on the road on which to pull over, and my waiting client, I continued my drive... in deep wonderment and awe at what I had just witnessed. Although I tried to mentally explore that the word "quit" (with the additional "t" and exclamation point added for emphasis) could very well apply to many things, I always readily returned to my knowing that that "sign" was directly referring to my repeated "call" over the previous couple months. Realizing that I had never even heard of nature writing anything so specific and perfect, I immediately knew that my quitting must be required and essential for not just ME and Krystal but that it would somehow contribute to the betterment of the WHOLE WORLD! :-) ... to be continued...

Women, Who Are We, Really? (January 10, 2011--1/10/11)

True empowerment comes for a woman when she realizes she does not need a
man or anyone else to validate her worth, assure her of her beauty or her
desirability or provide for her in any way.

True empowerment for a woman is when she realizes that she is, indeed,
whole, holy, divine; when she can embrace her imperfections and flaws and
see them as part of a perfect package.

Nothing in this world can stop an empowered woman living her passion.

Sometimes, others can give women experiences in:
control
judgment
guilt
shame
pride
greed
lust
gluttony
slothfulness
anger
envy.

Each of these experiences can take the foundation of peace right out from
under an individual, causing one to lose her balance and feel momentary
misery. The duration of the "moment" is in her control, however.

What women choose to do with these experiences can either create a "victim"
out of themselves OR bring forth their empowered, true nature.

In the end, victimhood is merely a temporary stepping stone to a woman's
discovery of WHO SHE REALLY IS.

Without those difficult experiences, what would we learn?

Every great story is written from an involved cast of creative characters and a
plot with many twists and turns that leaves the reader hanging on and turning
each page in eager anticipation.

Each of our lives can be fully embraced and each character acknowledged with
appreciation for their part in our story.

In the end...it's all about life and happily ever afters...... .

It's the getting there that can be exciting and met with acceptance and
gratitude, even in the void of the unknowns.

As we flow through our lives in grace and peace, the "Groundhog
Day" experiences need not be oft repeated as we learn our lessons most
rapidly.

Gratitude and joy speeds the process.

Smiles lighten both our own load and those beneficiaries of our gift of light.

May we each remember our divinity as we stretch our mental sinews to
maintain our peaceful balance and learn our lessons in self-discovery.
The revelation of WHO WE REALLY ARE is worth any and all the experiences it
took to get to that place.

As we remind each other--through our radiation of JOY--we, in essence, lift
each other's burdens.

After all is said and done, we can see that our initially painful interactions with
each other (most often spurred by the "male" qualities elicited by fear and
control) allowed for opportunities to experience and learn.

The whole set and scenery changes the moment we make the concerted choice
to live continually in our state of joy, remembering that, indeed, IT'S ALL
GOOD! (a.k.a. "it's all God!")

May we remember and LIVE,
Kimberly

Reverse Paranoia (January 9, 2011--1-9-11)

Oh, the JOY, the delicious JOY of realizing that EVERYTHING IN THE UNIVERSE CONSPIRES TO BLESS ME...when I don't get in its way!!! :-)

I accept!
I say "YES!"
Thank you!
Amen!

How blessed the day when each one is scurrying to make and distribute gifts of self to give to and bless each other! :-)

A global, daily Christmas for EACH ONE!

Oh, what fun! :-)

2 Cor. 1:20 "All of God's promises are 'Yea' and Amen."

New Friends (January 8, 2011--1-8-11)

Oh, the JOY of making a new friend! One that feels so comfortable that the getting-to-know-each-other feels more like a re-membering.

I was gifted this day with this opportunity. What a precious gift! Thank you!

True Friends (January 7, 2011--1/7/11)

I continue to feast on the fruit that is delicious beyond description.

Additionally, Krystal and I were able to enjoy a meal today with Beth, a dear, true friend. She has proved herself so often to be a "true" friend and to openly embrace and accept without judgment. Oh, the freedom and joy of being in the company of a true friend! :-)

Merry X-Day! (January 6, 2011--1/6/11)

Much of today has seemed like a kind of "Christmas" for me. I feel like the Universe is (unawares of most of sleeping humanity), like a loving parent who has expectantly planned and prepared for this time...eager to see my delighted and so-very-grateful unwrappings. Without words, I speechlessly bow my head.

Thank you Santa! :-)

Beauty (January 5, 2011--1/5/11)

How beautiful people seem to me. What a privilege I feel when I am permitted entrance into someone's heart and they feel free to share who they see themselves to be. Although I can always find the beauty in a person, their beauty multiplies greatly in my eyes when they are able to be honest...with themselves and with me and others. *THIS* is who I am... all the warts, weaknesses, imperfections included. How rare this quality is...that of accepting "Beauty" AND "The Beast" and realizing "It's ALL Good!" God don't make no junk!!! :-) Just 6.6 BILLION different flavors (compared to Baskin and Robbin's 31!)...all serving their own purpose...unique and delicious in their own right and way.

I had the opportunity to meet and visit with a person who seemed much more honest than most. What a joy for me to reflect back to them the tremendous beauty that I saw.

I pondered upon how NONE of us mortals REALLY *KNOW* and completely accept WHO WE ARE...completely...100%. We all are living (to varying degrees) under the delusion of "mistaken identity". All trying to find *Who I AM* in the eyes of another. Using make-up, the "right" clothes, house, car, career, etc. etc. to disguise the "hideous beast" lurking inside. Terrified of being seen *naked*, for who we really are! Most believing that a relationship can provide the missing component that will "make me feel whole".

And yet...how CAN two "things" relate to each other (or even attempt to) IF THEY ARE BOTH *HIDING*??? If I hold out my closed fists and ask you to guess what each contains (with no prior hints) and expect you to also see their relevance to each other...(hammer to nail, paper to pencil, earth to water, etc. etc.) then I am doing what so many lonely individuals do....attempting to find a relationship without even knowing their OWN *TRUE* identity, OR that of the other.

Something to think about.... :-)

Hugs,
Kimberly :-)

"Everything Is Beautiful"

(As recorded by Ray Stevens)
R. STEVENS

("Jesus loves the little children
All the little children of the world
Red and yellow, black and white
They are precious in his sight
Jesus loves the little children of the world")

Everything is beautiful in its own way
Like a starry summer night
Or a snow covered winter's day
And everybody's beautiful in their own way
And under God's heaven
The world's gonna find a way.

There is none so blind as he who will not see
We must not close our minds
We must let our thoughts be free
For every hour that passes by
You know the world gets a little bit older
It's time to realize that beauty lies
In the eyes of the beholder.

And everything is beautiful in its own way
Like a starry summer night
Or a snow covered winter's day
Ah, sing it children
Everybody's beautiful, oh in their own way
Under God's heaven the world's gonna find a way.

We shouldn't care about the length of his hair
Or the color of the skin
Don't worry about what shows from without
But the love that lives within
And we gonna get it all together now
Everything gonna work out fine
Just take a little time to look on the good side my friend
And straighten it out in your mind

And everything is beautiful in its own way
Like a starry summer night
Or a snow covered winter's day, ah sing it children
Everybody's beautiful, oh in their own way
Under God's heaven
The world's gonna find a way.

One more time
Everything is beautiful in its own way
Oh, in its own way
Like a starry summer night, or a snow covered winter's day.

(c) Copyright 1970 by Ahab Music Co.