Eat, Drink and *BE* Mary ! :-) (part 1)

Okay, Dear Reader... Did you catch the (apparent) typo?

The title of today's post: "Eat, Drink and *BE* Mary !" should have been spelled "Merry" as in the adjectival use: "cheerful and lively". Or, did I really mean "Marry" as in the verb, signifying "cause to meet or fit together, unite, combine, wed, join in marriage, fuse, mix, blend, merge"?

Nope, Dear Reader... Although I will certainly explore those other meanings (and each of them DO hold great significance to that which I intend to explore), today's title was intentionally spelled "Mary".

Why?

I propose that in this grand "buffet table of life", most, if not nearly EVERY mortal has been partaking (through their eating, drinking, and actions) of that which has rendered them a zombie, lifeless, nearly soul-less. TRULY as "whited sepulchers"! With the plethora of choices available, the grand spotlight has been focused to a greater and greater extend on that which is "delicious to the taste" (or carnal senses) and "very desirable", yet offers only a "dumbed-down" existence.

For those who continue with me, I will offer a very different perspective. This viewpoint (my own) will shine the light on just WHAT man(un)kind has been feasting upon and how death of the spirit and thus of the body has always followed. Yet, death is the back-door entrance into a state of rest. There IS another way. This "other" way brings one through the Grand Front Door Entrance into a literal state of "bliss, drunkenness, and JOY" beyond comparison to any of the sensual delights which temporarily titillate or satisfy those seeking mortal pleasures.

It is precisely this other way that I have dedicated my life to discovering, living, and assisting all others to explore... as they desire.

So... for those who have read and pondered upon my former post "When Nature Wants A Man", and if (as many if not all concur) "Men ARE that they might have (This) JOY", just WHAT has man(un)kind been missing? What variables can be shifted, added, deleted to properly, completely, and eternally bring about this sought-after state?

Let's continue to explore it together... uniting ("marrying") the entire family of man back into one cheerful, full-of-LIFE, global society of... (are you ready for this?) "Mary"'s. :-) Is this vision I hold even possible? Oh, yes! Though few in recorded history, there have been significant hints given. And, there have been those of us who appear as mere mortals who have found and embraced this state!

Just this weekend, my 18-year-old son, after a few shared texts, asked me: "Mom, are you Drunk?" My answer to him was: "YES! :-) On LOVE!" And I am certainly not the first to have found this divine elixir.

In the symbolic language of love (again, hidden within plain sight throughout myriads of poetic and mystical/scriptural texts), "wine" represents the divine love that intoxicates the soul; "getting drunk" means losing oneself in that love; the "cup" refers to one's body and mind, etc. Indeed, for any who have caught a few drops of this grand potion, life and mortality pale so in comparison that they can and will NEVER be content again until they receive the never-ending "fountain of living water" (or "living elixir") that is promised to be opened up within THEMSELF!

Truly, one drop is enough to ruin the rest of one's mortal life and weary one into a continual search for the divine wine-bearer. Rumi stated it well: "The wine I drink is the fire of love And God Himself pours it into my mouth!" and "We drink the wine of our own blood, Aged in the barrels of our souls, We would give our lives for a sip of that nectar, Our heads in exchange for one drop."

So... for all those courageous souls who desire to journey with me across this illusory existence and into one of REAL JOY and lasting drunkenness, exchanging former patterns of eating, drinking and being, for *LIFE*... hang on to your seats and prepare with open heart and mind to enter into a state of transcendent beauty and delight. We have much to explore, including who "Mary" is...! :-)

Till next time...

When Nature Wants a Man

Because the concept of "want" is central to that which I wish to unfold for the reader's understanding, and because Angela Morgan presents the theme so well, I will post today her poem "When Nature Wants a Man" and in later posts expound upon it as I unravel the principle of "want". It would behoove any reader to ponder deeply upon the stated as well as implied messages.

When Nature Wants a Man

By Angela Morgan

When nature wants to drill a man,
And thrill a man, And skill a man,
When nature wants to mold a man,
To play the noblest part;

When she yearns with all her heart
To create so great and bold a man
That all the world shall praise—
Watch her method, watch her ways!

How she ruthlessly perfects
Whom she royally elects;
How she hammers him and hurts him,
And with mighty blows converts him
Into trial shapes of clay which only nature understands—
While his tortured heart is crying and he lifts beseeching hands!—
How she bends, but never breaks,
When his good she undertakes…
How she uses whom she chooses
And with every purpose fuses him,
By every art induces him
To try his splendor out—
Nature knows what she’s about.

When nature wants to take a man,
And shake a man,
And wake a man;
When nature wants to make a man
To do the Future’s will;
When she tries with all her skill
And yearns with all her soul
To create him large and whole…
With what cunning she prepares him!
How she goads and never spares him,
How she whets him, and she frets him,
And in poverty begets him…
How she often disappoints
Whom she sacredly anoints,
With what wisdom she will hide him,
Never minding what betide him
Though his genius sob with slighting and his pride may not forget!
Bids him struggle harder yet.
Makes him lonely
So that only God’s high message shall reach him,
So that she may surely teach him
What the Hierarchy planned.
Though he may not understand.
Gives him passion to command.
How remorselessly she spurs him
With terrific candor stirs him
When she poignantly prefers him!

When nature wants to name a man
And fame a man
And tame a man;
When nature wants to shame a man
To do his heavenly best…
When she tries the highest test
That she reckoning may bring—
When she wants a god or king!
How she reins him and restrains him
So his body scarce contains him
While she fires him
And inspires him!
Keeps him yearning, ever burning, for a tantalizing goal—
Lures and lacerates his soul.
Sets a challenge for his spirit,
Draws it higher when he’s near it—
Makes a jungle, that he clear it;
Makes a desert that he fear it
And subdue it if he can—

So doth Nature make a man.
Then, to test his spirit’s wrath
Hurls a mountain in his path—
Puts a bitter choice before him.
“Climb or perish!” so she says…
Watch her purpose, watch her ways!
Nature’s plan is wondrous kind
Could we understand her mind…
Fools are they who call her blind.
When his feet are torn and bleeding
Yet his spirit mounts unheeding,
All higher powers speeding,
Blazing newer paths and fine;
When the force that is divine
Leaps to challenge every failure and his ardor still is sweet
And love and hope are burning in the presence of defeat…
Lo, the crisis!
 Lo, the shout
That must call the leader out.
When the people need salvation,
Doth he come to lead the nation…
Then doth Nature show her plan
When the world has found—a MAN!

What is Wanted?

Contrary to a popular song ("You Can't Always Have What You Want") and also contrary to that same oft-repeated phrase hammered in by my mortal father while growing up ("Kimberly, you can't always have what you want!"), I DO BELIEVE that We REALLY DO... Get What We Want. But, alas... WHAT IS WANTED???

At a significant place within the walls of a building considered very sacred to the LDS people (of which I was one for most of my life), these words are given as a key to "entering into the presence of the Lord". In answer to this question given by a veiled being representing the Council of Gods, "Adam (or Eve for the women), having been true and faithful in all things, desires further light and knowledge, by conversing with the Lord (Elohim) through the Veil... After correctly answering several test questions, the patron is then stumped with one he or she cannot possibly answer (because no mere mortal could ever conceive of its real significance nor meaning).

After demonstrating complete and proper preparation (with any required assistance), the patron is then tutored (figuratively and, in most cases received ignorantly) in the correct response. Although deleted (along with other significant parts) from the amazing declaration which this entire "holy" ceremony was originally intended to represent and teach (for ALL humanity, not merely a relatively few "righteous" ones!), there are "Five Points of Fellowship" which are symbolically given as developmental milestones along each human's path of discovering that most important answer to the most provocative and enticing of all questions: "What is wanted?"

It is the unveiling of these "secrets" and the enlightenment of the "dark and dreary" wasteland that mortals walk which is my intent through these blog posts... and, indeed, through my life and the very reason for every breath I take.

For those brave souls who are led to this site with "broken hearts" and "contrite spirits"... it will be possible for each one to then figuratively, yet very, very really, to eventually hear the words for him or herself: "Let him enter!"

While concealed from the masses of men who wander blindly in unbelief and ignorance, the "Promised Land" (or "Kingdom of Heaven") really does exist... NOW... upon the earth. In fact, this very place, which is the quintessential reward held on reserve for EACH of us, requires no sum of money, no Olympic-quality physical exertion, in fact, NO "THING" is asked for its acquisition. And yet... EVERY THING is required for it to be fully received and embraced. The discovery of this beyond-amazing reward is always personal. Yet, full realization of this "Pearl of Great Price" is held on reserve for each one of us.

All that is required is the correct answering (through one's very life) of this all-important question: "What is wanted?"

So, Dear Reader, here we go. I will give my utmost to assist each of you brave ones in your journey. And, I promise... Each of you will invariably acknowledge at your personal journey's end: "It was so worth it! Every bit!"

May we each see each other on the other side of that veil and, together, rejoice and embrace in grand celebration is my vision. In peace and with great hopes, Kimberly

Today's Message

I was awakened today with the words: "By superimposing beliefs over the reality of a situation, one forces the reality to appear to conform to one's beliefs... instead of remaining open and allowing the reality to reveal its True Nature."

I DID IT!!!

October brought me face-to-face with an unknown beast.... I was confronted by a personal fear. Having, I had thought, previously conquered all fears, I was stunned, then to find one jump out into my experience. Dave (who has yet to be introduced to you, Dear Reader) and Krystal (now ten years old) and I decided to do an easy hike that day around Pioneer Park (the red Dixie Rock) in St. George, Utah. Covering not much more than 60 feet, and with mostly a gradual ascent, the crimson sandstone rock had long ago split open, revealing a crevice about thirteen inches wide and, in most places, about twenty feet high. Knowing that my body could fit through that thirteen inches and that many people had survived the experience, I saw no reason to hold back and began making my way through. Not far into the "shimmy" I had the overwhelming sensation of claustrophobia well up within me. Fear and terror sought to overcome me! Trapped by the sheer walls on two sides and with fellow hikers in front and behind, there was nothing I could do but to will myself through. I breathed deeply and told myself that all was well, I could continue, there was nothing to be afraid of. Still, with others beginning their ascent behind Dave (who was behind me), I also did not want to hinder or bog down any of their experiences. I willed myself to continue. As I felt the fear, I also pulled back mentally and *watched* myself experience the fear. This split allowed me to, as a more mature *big sis*, encourage myself to keep going. Dave and Krystal were precious! Each of them were patient and encouraging. Step by step, hand grip by hand grip, I fought my desire to scream and continued to inch forward and upward. About half-way through the slot was a small cavernous opening where I was able to step aside and allow those behind me to continue forward while I caught my breath, sat down on a rock and put my head below my knees for a few minutes while I loved myself back into my peace. Again, Krystal and Dave were magnanimous in their patient encouragement. Continuing on after a few minutes, I eventually lived through it and, obviously made it out of the canyon. As I relaxed at the top and we continued our hike around the stunning views and colored rock of the area, I pondered deep and wide: where had that fear come from? What trauma from my past could have been brought forth for me to look at? Knowing, with my tenacity, that I would some day face that fear again and go through the canyon a second time, I continued to also be open to learning what I had exposed to myself about myself. Yesterday morning Dave asked, upon seeing that the weather would be gorgeous, if I wanted to try the hike again. I immediately responded with "Yes!" So we did. This time, Dear Reader, I was able to sail right through, with very little inner tremor. I KNEW that I would live through the experience this time: Been there, done that! And... I did. In fact, immediately after making my way through with the other courageous folk that had congregated for their personal exploration, I triumphantly expressed at the top: "I DID IT!" I have long lived with the confidence that "I can do ALL things through Christ which strengtheneth me!" Often in my life I have had to call on all the inner reserves I could muster. At times, there have been "Angels" at my disposal who (like Dave and Krystal) have been there to provide help and encouragement. This, I believe, is what we each can offer to each other. This is also, Dear Reader, that which I desire to share with YOU! YOU can do all things and make it through all trauma in your path! And... together, we are so much stronger than each one of us alone. I love you, Dear Reader, and believe in you. May you make today bless-ed... for yourself and for each of the other potential "Angels" within your sphere. In peace....

January 18th--A Day of Great Significance to Me--The Exploration and Revelation Begins to Unfold

A careful investigator of my life will quickly note that my journey has been one of intense and continuous striving for understanding. With an open mind and an active curiosity I have felt self-driven to find the answers that made the most sense to discovering *Who I Am* and *What Am I Here For*??? My life's adventures have led me to and through much territory which others would not even consider exploring. Along my journey, I have come to discover the meaning and power of *Words* and how hypnotic and lulling they can become... truly casting *spells* and administering *sleeping potions* to those caught in their snares. Indeed, the pen IS mightier than the sword. Ironically, it has been my own fixation with words that has propelled me down a path of grand discovery. Unafraid, I have armed myself with confidence and determination to uncover what things REALLY mean, what symbols REALLY represent, who I REALLY AM. It is precisely This grand adventure, Dear Reader, which (should you continue) you may now walk with me as I share *Key Words* and understandings. For those with open minds and warm hearts, I will lead YOU through a maze of self-discovery and intrigue such as you have never known and could not even suppose. Relying predominantly upon my own life's experiences, I will additionally use common symbols and myths, scriptures and nature to unfold that which has lain hidden in plain sight of each of us all along. Among myriad of other words and subjects, I plan to explore the REAL meanings and significance of terms such as: adultery, one-ness, atonement, holy spirit of promise, a couple, true marriage, rings, Zion, becoming ONE, father, mother, Christ, son (of God), the promises in "scripture", the deep longings hidden within each human breast, the true needs of mortals, love, its meaning and acquisition, raising children properly, "doing unto others", prosperity, health, correctly utilizing (and healing) our senses, consciousness, energy, emotions, etc. etc. etc. Welcome Aboard!

A New Day Is Dawning...

Oh, how momentous has been this last year! Oh, how my heart swells open with the joy, wonder, and adventure of it all! Oh, how I have been compelled more than ever to cling to that holy place within my being to steer me through this grand adventure that I have been living! But, oh... how the increase in clarity and wisdom has opened up and enveloped me because of my path. And now, dear Reader, I am about to make available to any and all willing and prepared to review the ride with me. Hang on to your hats and buckle your seat belts 'cause... Here... We... GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! (Beginning tomorrow, January 18, 2015, I will begin "blogging" again. My intent will be the edification and elevation of all those who are able to maneuver to and through what I offer on my website: www.loveistheanswer.info .) With love and hope for all mankind, Kimberly